Today, I was just walking around the house when, suddenly, our neighbor started playing Britney Spears songs. Okay, don't even think about it. I wasn't singing along or anything, I was just listening to it. And I started questioning myself with her song Stronger.

Can I really say that, after all that has happened, am I stronger now? Can I say that, I'm not hurt anymore?

Of course not. I haven't forgotten yet. I haven't forgiven them yet. I don't even think that I can still forgive them.

Especially my so-called "bestfriend". She already knows, I'm done with forgiving her. She's already done alot of damage with our friendship. I'm done with her lies and her backstabbing. You know what, here's a friendly advice... set your priorities straight. If you say that you're my friend, then be one. Don't backstab me because it's not what a bestfriend does.

The other one, I don't know if I could still forgive her. She also did alot of backstabbing about me. I wouldn't say that I never did that with her, because I'd be a hypocrite. At least, I tried thinking about her. About how she felt. But she didn't think about how I felt. She was too greedy. She wants to know why I wanted to get close to that guy, well here's my answer. Because he was a good friend to me. He wanted to be my friend. And what did she do? She backstabbed about him and Che. I was afraid of entering college. In De La Salle, but when I met these two people, I was suddenly fine with entering the school. Because I know, I have my friends with me. I had these two friends with me. She didn'e even think about that. I thought she understood me, I guess I was wrong.

Well, I'll be open minded about it when they apologize. Because I know for myself that I wont. I never did anything wrong. Why would I admit to their mistakes? Even if they apologize, nothing would be the same anymore. everything will change. everything must change.

After typing this blog entry, I never shed a tear, I never felt any sympathy. Am I stronger? or just numb?