"I shall return..."

well, I never actually left, but I am returning to this blog. Why? I effingly need space. I need to breathe. In my previous blog, I'm being... I dunno, interrogated. violated. These people needs to know that I am awfully violated! I mean, it is my personal webspace. Can I have at least, an inch of air to breath?

They say, they want to let go. They want to "end everything". But why is it that they still check my posts? my previous blog? It only goes to show that, they want to be all up in my business, when they really shouldn't. I don't really get it. They say they want to end it, but why do they still talk about me behind my back? Why do they still spread gossips around and behind me? It's stupid. i know this might seems evil but, I was quite happy when she didn't pass dlsu. I really was. Part of me wanted to mourn with her, but after all that has happened, I really don't wish to see her again. Yes, it sounds awfully bad, but what can I do? They're the one who's forcing me to do this. I didn't want to start it, but they did.

I've had enough of being patient, understanding and ignorant. Now I am the one who's going to end it all. Let's just stop all the bullshit and I hope you go on with your lives. Stop blaming me for your wrong doings. It was your mistake to begin with. I won't even care about what you say anymore because, you're always thinking about yourself. What if, for just one minute, you thought about how I felt? Then you'd know. You'd know the sufferings that I had. I thought you were my friends. You were supposed to understand. You were supposed to support me in whatever decision I made. But what did you do? You tried controlling my life. I never asked you to cut your wrists for me! Why, did I tell you to do that? Never! It was YOUR CHOICE. you make your own decisions! So stop blaming me for your selfishness and cruelty! IT'S ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT YOU! SO STOP!

I'm actually happy that our "friendship" is coming to a halt. Because you made me realize who my real friends are. Who I can really trust. Who really cares about me. You mentioned that I didn't even say sorry? hah. I apologized to you a couple of times, but now, I'm regretting it. because I didn't do anything wrong! You're the one making your own karma and your own mistakes. I'm done here. So, let's stop the bullshit. I hate you, you hate me, let's never talk to each other again. it's for the best.