Falling out of love

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Never Ending Story

The first time we walked under that starry sky,
there was a moment when everything was clear.
I didn't need to ask or even wonder why, because each question is answered when your near.
and I'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds, this is the last time i'll fall in love.
Now don't hold back, just let me know.
Could i be moving much too fast or way too slow.
'Cause all of my life, I've waited for this day.
To find that once in a lifetime, this is it, I'll never be the same.
You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words.
And now that I've said them, they could never be enough.
As far as I can see, there's only you and only me.

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Friday, February 23, 2007 @ 1:19 PM

Tiring life

Mood: Pissed and tired
Listening to: Miahn Han Maeum - Wondergirls

Yesterday, was one of those moments when I want to just...grr... I dunno.

So, Morning, the usual classes and stuff. Then during the break I went online posted a few stuff and there. Went to last class and blah went off home.

As soon as I got home, of course, I went online. And I was shocked to find, SJ Philippines... GONE! oh my god. We all thought that there was an error with proboards, but it was confirmed, the board was deleted. Fuck that person. She even used MAY'S account! Oh my, the nerve! Then I also heard that, she screenshot one of my posts that said, Angels are different from Bangers. She even posted it in DongBang World and TVfXQ World. Oh my, this is just, too much controversy. I wouldn't dare leave the computer, my nurse was shouting at me already. It's so unreal. I just cried. I cried because of the frustration, hurt and this was already tiring.

My life is going in circles, controversy here and there. I couldn't study for my midterms. I was so damn depressed. I asked Ekah to call me and she did. I kept on crying to her. I couldn't take the pain anymore. Whoever did it, she went too far. It was damn too much. I don't even understand why this happened. Its... unreal. I felt like everything was my fault.

I should have left when I had the chance. I should have gone to Australia already when my parents wanted me to. I should have listened to them. Then, everything would be alright. Nothing would be wrong. Everything's my fault. I feel so sorry to everyone. I'm sorry to the jc-ers. I'm sorry to the angels and bangers if they were offended to my statement. I'm sorry to everyone that got affected.

I'm so tired already, I shouldn't be even this way. I can't act like this right now, but what can I do? I wish that I could perish from the earth. I just want to die so that everyone would be happy that way right? When I die, everyone would even hold a party because I did die. I don't want to experience this pain anymore. I'm already experiencing pain from all the medications, and still, I'm experiencing this pain in my heart.

Mianhe everyone. I don't know what to do to compensate for my faults. I feel like I'm such a bad person. I am a bad person. I'm sorry to bring you all so much trouble.

the last time

I therefore...

DonnaHae is the name. Fangirling is the game. I am madly in love with Lee DongHae. He is my love, my life, my everything. DonnaHae has been a fangirl for 7 years now, going on 8. She's currently 18 years old. Fangirling has been her life ever since she got to the Philippines. She spent her childhood in the US and loved it there. She is currently a 3rd year History Major in De La Salle University-Manila. She loves her life in her school and has plenty of friends. She enjoys writing fics, walks on the beach, watching dramas until the sun comes up and spazzing about Lee DongHae.

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