Mood: stressed
Listening to: Mal Hae - Battle

Talk about busy huh? Sigh. I decided to blog today cause of someone.

A friend of mine asked me what my orgs were. I answered that person properly and said, I had 5. Liga Historia, Gawad Kalinga, Debate Society, CSO and Tapat. Actually, alot of people ask me this question casue they always see me around. Then, that person asked again, "Donna, do you even breath? How do you manage it?" And I said, yes, I could manage it. I said that being busy and a workaholic is what I do. But, really, can I?

This is what happened to me today. After first class, I went to central plaza for Gawad Kalinga. It was fun, recruiting people. After that, I went to my second class and after that, we were supposed to have a meeting but it was moved to thursday. When I came back to the booth, Faye suddenly asked me to come to the 1MB GK Rally this thursday, of course I told her, I'd think about it cause I had a meeting. After accomplishing my Shifting papers and my application for majors, I went up to the department to get the papers signed and to pass the application. People weren't there so I decided to go back to the booth. I went around school to get a few requirements and get the stuff for histciv and humalit and went back to the department. I waited until 3 to get my papers signed. I went back to the booth to clean up and went to miguel to inquire about the shifting, went back to the booth again. Stayed for about an hour to finish a few paper work for Gawad Kalinga.

To tell the truth, today was really light. And I just realized, why do I ask myself on why I'm always tired and stressed when I'm the one whio's tiring and stressing myself.

Why am I doing all these? you might ask. Why do I want to do so many things, all at the same time. Why do I want to do so much work but I get pissed off with all of them? Why is it that I prefer to be active than everyone else?

Simple. I want to make a difference. I want to have a sense of self-fulfillment. I want to, just simple, be myself. I want my talents to be known to others. I want to be the leader that I see from others. I get mad at too much work, yes. Why? because on group works, no one would bother to help me. That's why I get mad. I can handle the work, all I was asking for is a little helping hand when I get too tired. I do have alot of things to do. No, I don't want to get mad, that's why I only smile with these people. I don't mind sharing the credit, I am not a selfish person anyway. All I ask for is a little help and respect.

I know, adding debate society to my organizations was almost crossing the red line. I know it was a hasty decision. But, this is something that I have always wanted to do. I want to learn to defend myself. To be confident to talk about what I believe in.

I'm sorry, to those people who might feel sad and sorta feeling bad because I don't have time for anyone anymore. I'm really sorry. I do this because I want to give difference. I want to explore myslef while I can. No, this does not mean that I am leaving my fangirling. I would never be me if I did that. What I'm saying is, I miss you guys and will miss you more. I'm sorry for not having so much time for everyone. If only I could control time, then I would give each prior time.

I do hope you all understand what I'm going through. I know that you might feel mad at me for ditching you guys on our scheduled dates. I do try my best to find time to meet with you all. I really really really miss everyone.

I can handle all these things that I am going into. Otherwise, why would I do something that I couldn't handle, right?

I dunno when I'll be updating my blog again. We had alot to do these past few days and for the next few days. Team buildings, meetings and also, midterms are coming. Sigh.

Ralph: hey, thanks for coming. I went to your xanga din ah! hahaha

ate dette: yay~~! hahaha yeah i think I have your number too~! ^^

jhocel: lol. binigay ko na yung link tapos may pinost ako na new link today lang. grabe battle mode din ako lately. and cute cute ni hwichannie~~!

No photo of the day, sorry. too busy.

till next time.