My Daily Ramblings

falling

2009-01-30T22:20:00.002+08:00

I'm falling in love.
and I'm not scared.

I'm scared of falling out of love.
DongHae, I need you. Where are you?
Can't you see I need you?

Park JaeBum, I am loving you soo much.
How can you be so perfect?
I don't just love you because of your hot body, but I love you because you're you.
I think you're the one.
Goodness, I wish you are.

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I haven't blogged here in the longest time. No, I haven't forgotten you guys.
I miss you all srsly. A few more months and I'm finally done with Thesis then freedom!

I'm planning a Korea trip this September.
Anyone who wants to come with me? :D

and to those asking for link exchange, sure my dears. I'll update my list soon. ^^

Still on semi-hiatus.

memes..

2008-11-26T08:43:00.003+08:00

TAGGED BY JANE.

I.
1. each blogger must post these rules.
2. each blogger must being with ten facts about them.
3. other bloggers who are tagged must also state the rules and ten facts about themselves. you must choose ten people to give this award to and list their names at the end.
4. it is essential that a tag is left at their tagboards, letting them know about the award they've recieved.

ONE I'm a Kpop fangirl. uh-huh.
TWO I'm a debater.
THREE I do my own nails most of the time.
FOUR I'm an insomniac. ><
FIVE I watch horror movies at 2 AM. 8D
SIX I'm a crybaby but I didn't cry so much this year. .__.
SEVEN I love to write and photoshop but I don't have the time to do so.
EIGHT I think studying History is awesome.
NINE I wanna get into law school next year.
TEN I want a dog. SO BAD.

II.
01. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
hmm... watch a tagalog movie in the cinemas. 8D

02. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make them anymore since I don't even try and do the thing.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yea.

04. Did anyone close to you die?
Not really.

05. What countries did you visit?
hmm... around Feb? US

06. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
new friends. graduate from the university and get admitted in a Law School.

07. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
May 25: My birthday and SHINee's debut, Oct. 11: Henry's birthday, Cris's birthday celeb and meeting ate Chai for the first time, September 06: SJUPH birthday :3, July 5: got to see, talk to, take pictures with Evan Yoo HoSuk and Isak. :3, Oct. 15: DongHae's birthday and celebration with friends. Dec 9: PASSED THESIS 1!

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
LOL passing thesis 1. It was such a big relief.

09. What was your biggest failure?
I lost friends

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
hahahaha. yes.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
eeteuk (my ipod) and kyuhyun (my camera)

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Cris (FTW! specially THAT night), Derek (for always being there even if you don't know how to comfort), Meghan.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
fandom. period.

14. Where did most of your money go?
albums, clothes, stationary stuff.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Pops in Seoul in Manila. :3

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Song Calling for You - SS501.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
(a) ugh... sadder? I think I've been more emo this year than the last year. (b) people either say I have been saying I lost weight or I'm getting bigger so I dunno. :/. (c) POORER.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Actually study. D:

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
fandom and spazzing.

20. How will you spend Christmas?
hmmm.. I dunno we might be out of the country or smth. but I think I'm spending it with my beloved cousins though.

21. Did you fall in love in 2008?
in and out. but Donghae made it all better. 2008 just made me love him more.

22. What was your favorite TV program?
Prison Break. 8D

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
hahahaha. I don't hate the person.. more like, apathetic.

24. What was the best book you read?
I read ALOT of books. My course demands it.. but the last book I loved was A Perfect Day by Richard Paul Evans.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
HAHAHAH. SHINee and SMASH recently.

26. What did you want and get?
I wanted an ipod and a camera and I got it. :3

27. What did you want and not get?
hahahaha. nvm.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
hmmm.... the dark knight? yeah so far it is.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 18. I was with a couple of friends up north. it was awesome and fun.

30. What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Pops in Seoul in Manila. definitely the most awesome thing so far.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
lol. more on the FOB side. wearing what I want whenever I want it.

32. What kept you sane?
my beloved friends.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
now and forever, Audrey Hepburn.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
ughh.. JPEPA? stupid President.

35. Who did you miss?
nevermind.

36. Who was the best new person you met?
hmmm.. definitely Meghan. :3 (we're almost 1 year wifey~)

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
if you think there's something wrong, then don't ever doubt that feeling. it might just be right.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
We can do anything if we sweat, and pay attention to those who are special to us,
Try your best to overcome the upsetting and tough obstacles.
This dream of yours is filled with passion, it's all yours.
- Once in a Lifetime (ShinHwa)

I tag anyone who wants to do it.

STILL ON HIATUS BTW.

anti-social

2008-11-20T16:02:00.006+08:00

HIATUS.

ANTI-SOCIAL.
NINJA MODE.
HIDING.
or, whatever you wanna call it.

just, yeah. there.
too busy with thesis. =__=

if you need me, I'll be in plurk, msn and yahoo.
if you wanna read my rants, LJ.

Threat?

2008-11-16T11:56:00.000+08:00

California Penal Code’s definition of stalking:

Any person who willfully, maliciously, and repeatedly follows or harasses another person and makes a credible threat with the intent to place that person in reasonable fear for his or her safety is guilty of the crime of stalking.

“Credible threat” means a verbal or written threat, including that performed through the use of an electronic communication device.

Let's talk jury then.
US style? hahaha.

4:03 am

2008-11-16T04:02:00.004+08:00

its 4:03 am. and I have to rant.
I have no one. at all.
no one to talk to.
no one to tell my problems.

I'm all alone in this world.
and I don't belong at all.
I have to cry, crawl myself into a ball and bawl my eyes out.
comfort myself over and over again.

I try to fit in.
but I actually don't.
I should just disappear.
because I don't matter at all.
NO. No one cares. No one looks for me.
NO ONE.
I do not matter in this world.
you don't need me.
I just get in the way.
I'm just an accessory. no, I'm just a pest.

an unnecessary dot.
an annoying half dead fruit fly.
I AM NOTHING.

so, just let me go.

Law School

2008-11-12T18:40:00.001+08:00

WARNING: major emo/drama/ranting moment.

So, since my third year in the University started, I've been talking to my dad about going to Law school after my History degree. He's been saying No, No and No over and over again for the first few times that we talked.

I was actually loosing hope in convincing him to allow me to take Law. He agreed on me taking another course but he doesn't want me to get Law for reasons that I seriously don't know and don't get.

These past few weeks, we were starting to talk again coz I'll be graduating soon. And he asked me again if I wanted to seriously take another course so I said yes. He asked what I wanted to take, and of course I responded with a firm Law. He said it would take me 5 more years if I really did take up Law. and I said I wanted to and I don't care. He still said No.

Later in the evening, we went out to watch Madagascar 2. During dinner, he said if I wanted to study again, I'm the one who's going to arrange my applications and stuff. He asked me if I wanted to go to Ateneo De Manila Law School and I said it would be okay. He recommended University of the Philippines Law School first then he told me to try in Ateneo and in my current school.

Yesterday, we had dinner out because it was my aunt's birthday. My aunt suddenly opened up the topic about Law School again.

and my dad suddenly said, "Donna, ask for your Auntie Deb's permission first before you start looking for law schools."
auntie said, "Jie, let her be! Let her study Law if she wants to. I'll even fund for her education if that's the problem. Its the first time we'll be having a lawyer in the family."

I'm happy that they finally approved. Like, seriously happy. But then, I ask myself now, Will I really be able to study Law? Do I really want to go to Law School for 5 more years? I think I do. I wanna do make a good lawyer. But I guess I have to get over this fandom a bit first before I do pursue this career.

Will I be able to let go of this? Will I be able to concentrate on my studies this time around? I'll be getting application forms starting this month and will be reviewing for the Entrance Exams. I'm scared but excited at the same time.

3 years

2008-11-04T00:04:00.002+08:00

its been 3 whole years huh?
who would have known..

November 4, 2005.
The first time that I laid my eyes on Super Junior. The first time that I came across a group consisting of 12 guys. As I was browsing further, I saw this particular guy. He had blond hair and he looked different from the 12 boys. (well for me at least) I pointed at him and said out loud, "I think I'm going to like this guy".

Turns out, I did like him. I watched their debut in Inkigayo live streaming and I was amazed by the dancing skills. I adore men who can dance. and so started the Super Junior fandom. I was starting out with DBSG then but then, I moved to Super Junior quickly. Their wits and talent captured me. I loved each and every member because they were all necessary to make up the group.

I continued the Super Junior fandom when they promoted Miracle and showed at different side to people. And where Super Junior Show started and other shows as well. This is, as they would say, the start of my golden days, as a super junior fan. I loved them more as they showed their real side to people.

As summer came, there was an annoucement that a Cho KyuHyun would be added to super junior. Honestly, I didn't think any offense to that. I actually looked forward to it. So, U came out and I went crazy for the song. I loved them more. Specially Lee DongHae whom I have loved/liked/adored or whatever term you want to use, since the beginning. I never thought I can be that loyal.

2 years came quickly and I enjoyed every minute of being a Super Junior fan. I met the most beautiful people in this fandom. I found my old friend who's still with me in this fandom. I lost friends, had enemies, but they were all worth it. The tears, the pain, the troubles were compensated by the laughs and happiness that I felt. I felt, for the first time, contented.

Now, November 4, 2008.
I am proud to say that I am still a fan. And my love for the boys are stronger. May it be for 13, 15 or for solely one member alone, I will love, protect and support Super Junior.

I dont think I can trade this for anything else. Super Junior helped changed my life, my world, me. They are, as DongHae's song goes, My Everything.

I don't ever want to say goodbye..

I know this is a bit early from their anniversary. ><;
will be posting another one on their special day~ <3

Life couldn't get better~

Keys Before My Eyes

2008-11-03T21:16:00.001+08:00

I died.
3 days without net is x__x

We went to Subic. I srsly thought we were going to the beach so I came.
turned out that we didn't go. =__= tss.

Basically, what I did was baby sit.
yes, I took care of a baby.
but hey, I liked taking care of the baby. he was cute~
I suddenly felt like I wanna have a kid too. .__. *cough*

Hm.. what DID I do?
I slept for 2 days.
Woke up to eat and read fics.
I ended up reading 2 fics.
1 fic made me cry like hell. Key Before my Eyes by Thao is WIN.
I sooo loved it that I stayed up until 7:30 AM reading it.
Gangster fic again but then, it was okay. Song is such a peculiar character but he was srsly sweet and weird in so many ways. sigh.
too bad that both of the protagonists died. But I seriously like those kinds of fics. Ironic really. It shows how life really is.
I specially loved this quote:

'Love is inconstant and unpredictable. It could either fade away into nothingness, or soar above the skies. We never stopped at any height and point; our point was a illimitable, and so.. we'll go forever and beyond.'

The other fic touched me. Linked to You by Anika was also sweet but I think it was lacking something.
and I liked the twist of fate thing but there were too much complications. nonetheless, I liked it too.
going to read the side story soon. Seo DaeYong made me fall for him because of his loyalty. Though I do not approve nor like love at first sight thingies.

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We also watched a tagalog movie. Yes, I got to watch a tagalog movie in the cinema house for the first time.
it was funny. but the ending sucks. =__=

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I GOT THE SUPER SHOW DVD AND SHINEE WORLD VER.B ALREADY! ^0^
gonna get the posters soon too. >w<
Philippine postal services SUCK for real. UGH. will resort to EXPRESS with YESASIA next time.

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November is here. and December is coming soon too.
sigh. November 4, the first time I laid eyes on Lee DongHae and the first time I thought, I'm going to like this guy.
I ended up doing just that. November 4. My anniversary with Super Junior.
November 6, the anniversary of their debut~ <3
God. I srsly have never loved anyone or any group like this before.
and...

I'm not too sure that I wanna grow out of it soon.

I missed you all~ ;___;
I don't feel like going to school tomorrow. =___=

2008-10-26T13:01:00.000+08:00

"They don't even know what it is to be a fan. Y'know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band, so much that it hurts. "

- Almost Famous.

Happy Birthday HaiBao

2008-10-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

Yah, DorkHae, its your birthday again. your, 23rd birthday.
I wanna wish you a happy happy birthday and more birthdays to come.
you know, you play such an important role in my life. and I'm pretty sure you mean alot to other people's lives too.
You're so busy with SJ-M and with the concerts lately, you should also rest and take care of yourself. you know your ELFs wouldn't want you sick or anything.
I've always had this dream of seeing you. meeting you. But I don't want it to be anytime soon. Because I love how I look at you right now. and I'm pretty sure my life would be meaningless if I do get to see you soon. I don't want to stop loving you. I'll take all the tears and the pain of missing you, longing for you. Just so I can love you, still.
I hope you're happy with your life right now. You finally reached your father's dream and your dream as well. I hope you're always well and fine.
생일축아해.
사랑해요. 이동해.
영 원 히.

I must be crazy for loving you this way...

YAY-ness

2008-10-14T18:20:00.002+08:00

YAY!
I won!
hahahahaha!
we're so going to write on Napoleon Abueva.
yes, thesis sucks
but then, I really wanna talk about abueva.
and I recently found out that his house is KEWL. hahaha.

La.
Onew Condition still gets me.
ahahaha.
and lololol.
the magical plans on 13.
I loooove it.
plus the fact that its on 13.

La.
La.
La.

and me, talking to him. isnt helping at all.

its donghae's birthday tomorrow.
he finally cut his hair! yay!
I can finally see his face.
sigh. happy 23rd birthday love~

I've been feeling tired. every single day.
I dunno why.
I even cut last class for no reason at all.
I wanted to sleep.
so I did.

hahahaha..

Onew Condition + HeeChul Condition is BLAH.

over you

2008-10-10T19:13:00.002+08:00

and so, we meet again...

its funny. I was half expecting a bad day. but it turned out really great.
I saw him again.
spent the whole afternoon with him and omma.
it wasn't that bad.
we actually talked.

I didn't expect anything.
but after today, I realized I wasn't mad at him anymore.
I dunno why that hatred disappeared.
it just did.
but, I'm not in love with him anymore.
we're... friends.
again, hopefully.

sigh.
what is this feeling!?
I dunno. =___=

gotta work on thesis. grah.
I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT ABUEVA!
la!
Onew Condition!

yes you are...

2008-10-03T12:38:00.000+08:00

My Everything by Lee DongHae.
made me cry for the nth time already.

I didn't wanna say anything..

2008-10-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

I really didn't wanna say anything but... saw this from someone's multiply and I got intrigued..

This is classic. A very literate way of celebrating. I never knew they were cults. They seem to me as a voodoo ritual or some sort of curse, as Alliv had said.

I will not doubt if I will see voodoo dolls named after De La Salle's Basketball team members. Don't have the guts to tell us na Masarap Maging Atenista because I don't ever want to belong to a group of people who celebrates by practicing wickedness. So you enjoy this? I can't believe the Jesuit priests of yours allowed this to happen. You must really hate us so much, then.

Very well done, eaglets. You put all people into so much awe.

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Wow.
Wow.
Honestly.
its too much.

I know I have lots of atenean friends and I love and respect them and for their team winning but srsly.. this is too much.

and to think, their school is now recognized by the Vatican and the Holy Catholic Church.
How "Holy".
Just like how the old priests criticized the priestesses of the Philippines during the pre-hispanic days.

waaay below the belt people.
Sorry guys, had to post it for the love of my school.

Super DongHae

2008-10-01T16:32:00.002+08:00

new layout~
because the layout Derek made for me was messed up, I decided to use this already.
hahaha though it wasn't really ready for use yet.
anyway, DongHae again.
because my hubby is Super LOVE!

Yesterday was tiring. ><
tito jaime's surprise party was a success but it was tiring.
dad got shit drunk.
I drank a few bottles but it was nothing.
Danced non-stop.
PWNED THE DESERT TABLE! bwahahaha!
omg. I died with the desert table.
2 CHOCOLATE FOUNTAINS and a STRAWBERRY FOUNTAIN! *0*
It is super love.
my cousins were LOVE. as usual.
hahaha.

Tomorrow, school again. bummer. =___=

SHOUTOUTS!
ate mela: HELLO PO ATE MELA~~ yes I still remember you. ^^

Derek: Ayusin mo yung jonghyun layout ha!

Yeye: and kewl sa UPLB~! and I replied. ^^

Man, I need more sleep.
and to think, I woke up at 2:30 PM.

Tripping..

2008-09-28T13:29:00.002+08:00

Last thursday was the end of the UAAP Men's Basketball.
too bad though. We didn't win against Ateneo.
sigh. Poor JVee. He poured out everything on this game.
and Rico. Escorted out of the game.
unfortunate. but, we have to get over it.
there are other competitions.

hahaha. yesterday was the ultimate tripping experience.
We decided to go to the UAAP Swimming Competition at Trace College.
Gah. We didn't even know how to get there!
but fortunately we did. hahaha!

gah. that was the craziest tripping ever.
We got there around 3 PM and we got to watch Casey compete.
we also got to see Enchong swim. Too bad we couldn't stick around to watch his IM.
anyway. uber fun tripping.
we were dead tired when we got home. hahaha.

School again tomorrow.
Haven't done anything yet.
Have to do Hila's paper.
and read Durkheim's boring work about religion.
gah.

and I need a new layout. x__x

depression

2008-09-19T00:02:00.002+08:00

someone showed me the old tree today.
and as I saw it. It was completely different.
it was no longer gloomy and scary.
it actually had life. very colorful with leaves.
as I went around the tree, feeling a hint of happiness since I grew up taking care of the tree, I felt happy.
as I looked around, looking for the name that I etched somewhere around the tree, I realized someone has scratched it out of there.
along with some names of a few important people in my life.
the smile on my face faded. I actually felt like crying.

I helped nurture that tree.
it was cut off once, but we nurtured it and revived it.
we supplemented its needs. we gave it time to grow again.
seeing my name etched out, something was telling me that I am not wanted.
I guess, I never was.

I was never wanted. Never needed.
I am insignificant.
I am nothing, right?
while I helped bring up that tree which has now bloomed.
I suddenly became unimportant.
it hurts like hell. Even if we did plant a new seed and it bloomed into a beautiful young tree.
it hurts because, something was telling me to leave.
they told me to leave.
because I am insignificant.

finally, after 4 years, I had that feeling that I was unwanted once more.

Tired

2008-09-14T21:43:00.002+08:00

SJUPH first unofficial gathering.
Got excited.
Spazzed.
Talked.
Sang.
Talked some more.
Evaluations.
Conversations with CassCore.
File Sharing @ Glorietta.
Tired.
srsly Tired.
but have to study. x___x

this is srsly pointless.
might as well rant on my other blog.

I'm Ready

2008-09-06T12:11:00.001+08:00

the deed is done.
and we have done our best and still doing our best.
now, I'm ready for anything that will come.
Hate messages and hate mail. I don't care.
coz I will face anything that will come our way.
I know this will be difficult.
I know this is a big commitment,but I will own up to what I started.

SJUPH core, I love you guys.
truly, honestly.
I will repay you guys somehow.
you guys are THE BEST.

I AM NOONA-FIED

2008-09-02T17:23:00.002+08:00

W.T.F.
yes, I got NOONA-FIED too.
But no, I do not fancy TaeMin. hahaha! so I am not completely a noona.
I like MinHo and JongHyun. I really find them HAWT. daym.
Good thing JongHyun is still older than me or I'll start pulling my hair off.
I got to watch the NoraeBang session that these kids had without TaeMin and O.M.F.G. KEY IS THE ULTIMATE WIN! hahaha.
If Suju is GAY, KEY is GHEI!
and I mean ultimately GHEI. He is the GHEI Rep for SM Artists.
Specially when he was dancing SNSD and So Hot. O.M.F.G.
That kid has serious issues. hahaha.

Anyway that's not the only reason I'm noona-fied.
I got to download their album along with FT Island's and I'd have to say, DAYM. THEY HOT! hahaha.
Their sound is so hawt! I can't even put into mind that an average of 16.4 years is singing these songs I'm listening to right now.
I liked their album more than FT's. No offense FT Island friends. Just telling the truth. :]
Daym. They definitely snapped me out of that Big Bang craze I was having. But then, GD's red suit in DISCO with Uhm JungHwa was calling back to me. hahaha! HE LOOKS FOINE! evenifhishairSTILLdistracts.
hahaha! I'm supposed to be doin stuff for iVIP and DBSJ but then I feel lazy recently. and I dunno why I start talking FLORIDA style again. I guess I miss a piece of home.

GRAH. I feel crazy. hahaha.

Oh, before I forget...

UNITED we STAND. We are ONE. Super Junior. 09.05.08 11 PM
be there or be square.

hahaha. I love the mystery of it all~

100th post!

2008-09-01T19:27:00.001+08:00

according to blogspot, this is my 100th post!
yaaay!
for the 100th post on September 1, 2008..
I have a new layout. (yes again. hahaha)
see how bored I am with my life I just do layouts.

anyway, if you have layout requests, go to http://eunhaeproductions.blogspot.com
made by yours truly and a dear friend of mine. ^0^

chickenpox almost gone?

2008-08-31T15:00:00.002+08:00

waaaah!
I changed my layout~~~ hahaha.
I really thought the last one was cute but now I am loving the layout I made/modified!
wooh!

Well, these past few days, thursday to present, I got the chicken pox.
no thanks to my freakin cousin who's stupid enough to go home when he was starting to freakin heal!
well, I feel better.
2 days ago I was ITCHY! FREAKIN ITCHY! but now, its all okay. I don't feel itchy and I think I'm getting better coz the red marks on my face are almost gone and I think I have pimples I need to pop.
Gah. I feel sad though. Today, me and my friends were supposed to go to noraebang because it was Mommy Chi's birthday and now they're at noraebang without me! TT____TT sad sad sad. Sigh. I hope they're having fun. I know I'm not. ><

I do hope I get better this week so next week I can go with Alex, Tiff, Erin and Nixxie to hang out and watch the Real Concert because I freakin miss my VIP friends. and its my term break for goodness sake! I wanna take advantage!

I finished They Kiss Again and I do have to say that I like this series better but then, the ending could have been better. It was too dramatic and it was left hanging too much. Though it was okay. YuShu having a love interest and stuff. I think there's going to be a part 3. But maybe more on YuShu and then Joe and Ariel's kid being born and stuff.

I think I'll start on 3 dads and 1 mom tonight or later. and now, I shall take a bath, toodles~

2G LOVE

2008-08-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

since I'm done with my papers and all (except thesis proposal which I'm too lazy to do) I'mma blog about 2G nao~ hahaha. :3

August 24 is one of the happiest days of my life. Can't imagine. Besides the fact that I don't like this date because... hahaha! nevermind. Some people might get it, some might not.

Anyway, I had to leave the house extra early coz my family wasn't home but then my grandfather was the one who's standing guard so I smsed Nixxie labs if I could come earlier and Eijii replied that I can go~ hahaha. So I took a bath, dressed up and went to JooSarang. Sadly, Mommy Chi couldn't go because of her EVIL tita and their family. tss. =___=

So, I got there extra early. I was the first one to arrive actually. hahaha. apart from the core of course. We grabbed lunch over at ahjumma's. We had kimbap, yes, 1 roll of kimbap only. hahaha. Around 1 PM, we started watching haru haru performances and some of us were screaming in delight. Including me of course. XD

And then, at around passed 1 PM, the program started. I was quite glad that Angel was there coz I didn't know alot of VIPs except for the Core and they were really busy. I saw some of the UP Arirang people too~ Some, I met at UP at their tambayan. So, there were annoucements and then the Sing and Rap contest started.

I actually took Eijii's camera and took the pictures. I was laughing and laughing specially with Erin's crazy antics. ERIN FTW! I swear. hahaha. And after that, they had more contests and stuff. I even answered one that's about TOP's cap on the How Gee MV. hahaha. Hard Knock Life yo!

ON TO THE NORAEBANG SESSION! Srsly, it wasn't the first time that I hogged the mic with a friend. hahaha. but it was fun singing with Alexine. Damn girl! You've got MAD RAPPING SKILLS! and in Korean too! hahaha. Erin and Tiff were soooo funny singing and dancing with us. It was soooo fun singing to YoRiWang with my baby girl~~ hahaha. Finally, an update with suju songs! hahaha. it was such a pity talaga na mommy chi wasn't there I was sooo sure that she'd wanted to sing and dance to that song! hahaha. But, I was more tongue tied with YoRiWang than with the other Big Bang songs. .__.

Nixxie labs was kidding me with asking me who's DongHae and shizz. hahaha. I swear, my bigbang addiction is getting scary! Oh! Oh! MY STAND UP ALBUM IS THE BEST! hahaha. As soon as I opened the booklet, I LAUGHED AT GD'S POSE. WTH. I swear, WIN!!! GD IS MADE OF WIN!

YAAAA~ and we made videos of greeting bigbang's 2nd year anniversary and wishing GD a happy birthday! everything was so JJANG!

After the Gathering, we said goodbye to some of the people coz they had to leave. But most of us went to eat dinner and we ate a ahjumma's again. Had tons of fun making noise in the restaurant. hahaha. Mish and I had our moments with out fangirling and our "tampo" session with DBSG and Suju. so yeah, but it was awesome and fuuuun~

After dinner, as we were going out, there was this korean guy who was talking to Mish and he even asked to take a picture of us. hahaha! it was made of WIN! Its funny how koreans are so fascinated by people who are interested in gasoos as well. So, as we moved on, the core went to CANMORE to have a meeting. I decided to go with them along with a couple of people. (I don't know/forgot their names ;___; sad) and we had some sharing moments about school and life and shizz.

I got home around 11 PM. hahaha. BUT IT WAS SOOOOPER FUN!

Nixxie was right, 2G comes only once.
ILOCOS is there forever.
XD

I SUPER LOOOOVE ALL THE VIPS I MET. Ate Meg, who I met for the first time but she was on my MSN list XD, Katie, who's Mish's sister and who's srsly quiet but adorable, Yeye, who's also a lasallian/benildean (we should have lunch or something! then fangirl! hahaha), the twins Erin and Tiff, who gave me laughs and giggles and who even danced with me during the noraebang, the UP Arirang people who I got to talk to~~ and to those people I forgot I'm sooooo sorry~ I'm bad with names. >-<

and to my VIP friends, Mish, Nixxie, Alexine, Calvin, Eijii, Angel, I SOOOPER LOVE YOU GUYS~~~

3G NAMAN HA! I hope to bond with the VIPs again~
I luff you all~

and wtf, I srsly completely forgot about DongHae but on my way home, he kept singing to me. and when I got off the bus, I cried. and when I was talking to Eijii about him, I cried some more. I couldn't sleep and listened to his rendition of My Everything. I cried myself to sleep.

its not pity..
its missing him and wanting him back.
but I can't.

so, I made myself happy with JiYong. :3

walking in the dark

2008-08-25T22:15:00.003+08:00

it feels like walking in the dark.
where I stood still beside you,
and you, you walked away with silence.

I stood there, thinking
you were still beside me.
I reach out to you, and
I could not find you there.

it feels like walking in the dark.
when I stood still without you,
and you, you never returned.

---

It saddens me that I cannot see you.
I cannot watch you. Even listen to you.
it pains me to look back.
I cannot even smile.
instead, I cry.
the thought of you,
the memory of you..
It difficult when the one you love is the one causing your pain.

I wanna see you again.
not just see and hear you..

but I want the Lee DongHae I once loved.

What a pervy song

2008-08-20T11:02:00.003+08:00

hahaha. seriously.

I just read the translations, and omg.

srsly pervy.

now I know why SJ-H's album is R-19

once, twice, three times, how many time have we met~
I was struck through the heart with your feelings~
The way she looked at me~
All of sudden the beat and rhythm flowed through my body, like a man now, OKAY~
All the preparations are now done, ok, one two three, let's go!

Let's have a party together tonight~
Because I want to make this a memorable night for her~
We know we've already exchanged that FEEL
so why are you acting so stiff~ no need to be~
For scent, I bought candles ofcourse~
I also bought balloons to fill my entire room~
The hardest for me to select was the PAJAMA I wanted to wear tonight~

**
Wearing our pajamas~ Wearing our pajamas~
Tonight together~ let's throw an awesome party together~
just the too of us~ with much energy~ let's play!
Like they do in the movies~ Let's also have a pillow fight~
Like the color of snow~ inside a white pillow world~ with much energy let's~ enjoy ourselves~

RAP
It's been a really long time since I've clearned or done the laundry
But I spend the whole hectic day doing them, along with blowing up balloons until my mouth felt like it was going to burst~
Going to the grocery store with a list~ and even cooking~
I tried it myself, perhaps this is the effect of love? I'm too happy for words~!
How do you like the room I live in?
How is the dinner I handmade for you?
She looks even prettier by night-time~ especially her pajama~

Wearing our pajamas~ Wearing our pajamas~
Tonight let's have a dandy little party~
Let's have alot of fun with just the two of us~
Up on the sofa, Up on the cough, Let's jump around~
Like little kids, let's harness ourselves to the sky above and jump with excitement~

Afterwards when we get tired, it'd be time for me to capture the mood~
There maybe even be some sly thoughts that sneak in~ whoa

RAP:
Toss your worries away
In front of her, my love is pure, she probably knows right?
Now my heart is starting to race~ even higher~

Wearing our pajamas, Wearing our pajamas~
Let's throw an awesome party tonight~
Let's have fun with just the two of us~
With wonderful music, and white champagne
Her perfume, Her happy laughs~

RAP:
It feels like I'm spending the happiest moment with her in this world

PAJAMA!!! PAJAMA PARTY!!!
Let's play with all our energy!
Just the two of us, let's play!
PAJAMA!!! PAJAMA PARTY!!!
Tonight let us have a dandy party together~
With her until the morning arrives
Together with her forever~

Big Bang Disease

2008-08-14T18:30:00.003+08:00

Mood: tired
Listening to: Oh My Friend - Big Bang

I am seriously addicted to Big Bang.
yes, I have Big Bang and G-Disease.

Liek, wtf.
I am so in love with GD.
I even freakin' dreamt of him last night. I was expecting it coz morning, noon, night I listen, watch and breathe big bang. hahaha.
THIS. IS. SO. WRONG.
gaaaaah!
*clings to donghae still*
I blame DongHae's absence.
and I blame GD.

I don't blame myself.
coz if I do, it won't make sense to me. XD

YongWonHee, SarangHae Chinguya~
I love OH MY FRIEND currently.
and the meaning is nice too.
awesomeness even if its different from big bang's sound.
~~andevenifGD'sapsychointhemvhestilllookshawt~~

hahaha.
I'mma go and study nao~ :3

Jane is LOVE

2008-08-04T12:34:00.001+08:00

DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
yeahh I would gladly die if I get to meet hae
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahahahahaha~ xD
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
really. XDD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
lol. you cant die yet D:
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hae will cry~
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
and your baby hae will be momless
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
xD
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
awwwwe~ X3
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
that made me seriously smile.
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahahaha xD
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
lol. our baby hae.. X3
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
lol
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
that sounds cute xD
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
awwwwe~ I'm giggling. DDDDD:
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
this will definitely go on my blog. XDDDD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahahahahah xD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
O:
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
i will be laughing at myself
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
lol
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
hahahaha~! I laugh at myself too.
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahahahaha xD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
it's just fun 'o'
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
yeahhh~ waaaaah! omg. I really want a baby hae. hhahaha. if I get pregnant I'll stare at donghae's picture.
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAH~
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
wtf man xD
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
I wish when he goes out, he'll look like hae.
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
yes *-*
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
hahaha.
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
that baby hae thing made my night
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
lol
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
sexy baby hae xD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
i can see it now *-*
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
flirtatious 5 year old
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahaha
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
woot! XD
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
if only I can flirt with my kid. XD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
LMAO xD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
that would be so wrong
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
I KNOW!
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
hahahaha
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahahaha xD
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
if baby hae was flirting at 5. I'mma hit donghae twice XD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahahaha xD
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
because donghae was probably flirting at 5 too? xp
DonnaHae;PWNAGE :: THESIS says:
nope. he's a wimp.
13 // s o r a ★ vampire of the toilet says:
hahahaha xD

weeee~
I love SORA~!

Big Bang Boy

2008-07-31T07:42:00.004+08:00

~~~~♥♥♥~~~~

'Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations?'

1. When I fall and hurt myself

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who gives me a piggy back ride to the hospital
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who makes fun of me because I fell~
c. Dong Young- Bae, who runs to go buys medication~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who helps me get home
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks if it hurts a lot and blows on the place where it hurts

2. When I say I want a name brand item

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who buys a fake one and says later on, he'll make it a real one~
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who pretends not to listen but buys it for me later~<3
c. Dong Young-Bae, who promises to buy me one once he makes more money
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who keeps saying not to buy expencive things~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who keeps asking if he can buy me something else~

3. While watching a horror movie

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who protects me~
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who quietly covers my eyes~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who comforts me by saying there's nothing to be scared of~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who holds my hand tightly
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who screams even before i scream~

4. When my voice crack while singing

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who pinches my cheek and says i'm cute
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who laughs at me~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who gets even more embarrassed than me~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who pretends he didn't hear it~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who makes fun of me by imitating me

5. When his friend says he likes me

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says what are you trying to do and breaks ties with his friend
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who goes up and punches his friend~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who talks it out with his friend
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who says he will introduce another girl to his friend~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who stops talking to his friend~

6. When I'm mad at my boyfriend

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who starts a serious talk by asking me if I'm mad
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who says I'm sorry and says don't be mad~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who sings to me
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who makes me laugh
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who does cute stuff around me

7. When my boyfriend meets my friends

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who compliments me in front of my friends
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who asks my friends to watch over our relationship
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes me feel good by complimenting my friends
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who makes my friends comfortable as if they were his friends~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks my friends to consider him

8. On my birthday

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who takes me some place expensive
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who treats me better than other days~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes me a special present
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who sings to me on a stage at a restaurant
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who says happy birthday all day long cheerfully~

9. When we kiss

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who hugs me tight first
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who just does it
c. Dong Young-Bae, who asks first
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who becomes awkward first
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks if I can give him a kiss on the cheek and turns his head when I'm about to kiss his cheeks~

10. When it's raining and we only have one umbrella

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who shares the umbrella but he ends up getting wet
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who holds me really tight so both of us don't get wet~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who give me the umbrella and he walks under the rain~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who tells me to wait and go gets another umbrella~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who just tosses the umbrella and have both of us to walk in the rain~

11. When I say I want to break up

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who lets me go, saying he's sorry he didn't do much for me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who is dumbfounded and says he never thought I'd break it off
c. Dong Young-Bae, who asks if he can hug me one last time
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who says farewell and lets me go, crying~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who clings and anxiously asks why I'm acting like this suddenly~

12. When we go to the amusement park

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who suggests to ride what I want to ride~
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who suggests to go to the haunted house first~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who takes lots of picture~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who eats this and that~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who forcefully takes me to scary rides~

13. When he is paying at a restaurant but has no money

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who is sorry but asks if I could pay for now~
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who has them keep his belonging until he can pay~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls his friend to bring some money~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who is anxious and doesn't know what to do

14. When I talk to another guy

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who thinks it's no big deal
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who tells me not to talk to other guys~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who can't say anything but actually bothers him~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who is curious and sneakingly wedges in the conversation~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who later asks what we talked about~

15. When he can't reach me through the phone

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says he's worried
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who comes to my house right away~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who lets it by, thinking something must have happened
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls until I pick up
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who gets mad because I didn't pick up

16. When I tell him I love him

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who whispers in my ear that he loves me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who kisses me
c. Dong Young-Bae, who hugs me without saying a word
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who smiles, embarrassed~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who hugs me tightly, saying he loves me too~

17. When we're shopping

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says it's boring and wants to go home already~
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who picks out clothes for me~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who does everything I want to do
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who impatiently follows me around
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who enjoys shopping more than I do~

18. When I act cutely (like a kid)

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who thinks I'm cute and hugs me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who says I'm not doing it right and shows an example~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who tells me to do that everyday~
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who just laughs
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who copies me

19. When we get held up by a gang

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who fights them
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs~
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes an effort to clear things out
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls the cops~
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who leaves me and runs away~

TRANSLATION CREDIT:
1tymforyomind and bigbangnyuh
@SOOMPI + Captaino@loveft-i
credit if taken out

CREDIT: ORIGINAL// IN KOREAN

<3

~~~~♥♥♥~~~~

I seriously LOOOOVE GD.
he's such a dork
and so adorable~

Seungri's also kinda cute.
like a little boy.
~~I'mma edit later. XD~~

lol as you can see, its the battle between GD and SeungRi.
hahaha.
But still, GD I love.
coz he's soo... fanfic-y.
lmao.
and seungri's like a kid and comedic.
but I like both of them really.

Mirmo!

2008-07-26T12:24:00.002+08:00

Watching: Prison Break Season 3
Mood: Blah.

I feel so absolutely bored. I'm not doing anything because I really don't have anything to do at all. No homeworks, no papers, nothing due. So I'm watching prison break on a Saturday afternoon.

Yesterday was, yet again, another UP trip for me. Well, I was supposed to go to ADMU to meet with Ances but she said we can meet again next time. So, after my so-not-worth-it trip to Mowell Fund Film Institute, I went to UPFA and waited for baby Nadine's class to end. It ended quite early so we met with Nixxie and went over Mashita and I ate my so-called lunch at 2:30 in the afternoon.

We just stayed there and talked and waited for Mommy Chi and met her at AS Annex. Then Nixxie went to UP Arirang tambayan and shared files with people. After a while, we stayed at UP PHAn too because Nixxie was waiting for someone. =___=

Then we went to Nixxie's place then Mommy stayed a while but she had a final interview so she left. Then it was Baby Nadine's turn and Nixxie and I decided to take her home... and stay at her house. XD

At Nadz's place we just played with the nail polishes and gave me a manicure. XD mind you, it was Mirmo de Pon inspired. So cute~ Then Nixxie had to leave too so it was me and Baby Nadine and her brother, Red. We had dinner and I got to watch a few seconds of Chunji then left too.

Anyway, next week, I think I'll go to ADMU finally so I can give Ances her shirt and stop bothering Nadine and Nixxie in UP.

Tomorrow, we'll have a meeting. Finally. A whole meeting. Coz we need to get things straight specially now. Sigh. Tiring. I sure hope this is going to be fulfilling.

remember..

2008-07-23T19:18:00.001+08:00

기억하고
싶지 않다는건

기억하고
있다는 거잖아요.

Permanent Layout?

2008-07-23T11:50:00.002+08:00

I really LOVE this layout.
I'm thinking if I should make this the PERMANENT layout so I don't have to change and change and change.

anyway, I gotta go and eat.
then take a bath then go to school.

moving back

2008-07-23T11:33:00.002+08:00

Since I feel like it. I'm moving back to this blog.
I'm so confusing huh?
but then if people cared, then they'll look for it.
lololol.
yes. feeling special and shizz. =___=

I'm going to have my Green and White pictorial in a while.
kinda nervous. Plus my schedule is with Ralph.
wtf.
after pictorial my mom DEMANDED me to go home.
so I'll be going home early.

I can't believe I'm going to graduate soon. it feels so not right.

NAsH DC: Day 01

2007-08-31T21:23:00.000+08:00

mood: tired and happy
listening to: the sound of water pouring down

I'm really tired so I'll make this brief.

Maybe I'll edit it tomorrow or so.

NASHDC WAS GREAT. tiring though, but really great. Spent the morning with King while waiting for people.

EVERYTHING WAS JUST GREAT.

and especially getting induced with the rest of the lasallian debate community. it's the best

사랑 부르기

2007-08-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

Mood: in love
Listening to: 사랑 부르기 - Jjang Na-Ra

Today, was a great day. So was yesterday. And I'm sure tomorrow will be a pretty great day too. I'm not sure why I'm listening to a sad song when I'm really happy. Weird huh? but I love this song so much..

yes, I am very happy today. Wanna know why? because of him. This new guy that I adore so much. No, I don't like him for his looks. I like him because of his brain and the way he treats me. Though it's so complicated really. I'm just so happy.

See, he's one of the most arrogant people I have known but the more that I knew him, the more he became less arrogant for me. I actually ended up liking him. He's a debater. He's actually one of those people who talked me into joining debate. He's the only one who talked me into it.

Now, he's one of those people who I'm really comfortable with. He helps me out in the weirdest ways that he didn't even know he did. I like the way that he's always giving me an extra push because he knows I can be good. I can be great. He's really bringing out the best in me all the time. I'm happy because we talk. We're close to each other. and he's sharing me a special venue in his life and sharing it to me willingly. He always tells me not to worry and everything's going to be alright.

I don't care if he's arrogant, or so other people say. All I care with is, the way I see him. And maybe, I can change him like this.

No, I'm not falling in love. Well...

maybe I am.

20 things I want to say to people

2007-08-27T14:04:00.000+08:00

List 20 things you want to say to certain people but you know you never will. Don't say who they are.

♥ Although you were the one who wanted this, I want you to know I still love you. I always will. I miss you so much. :(

♥ thanks so much for everything. Even though you're not the one who's mushy, I'm that person hahaha, I know deep inside you do care. that's why you're my friend right? I don't regret anything because of you. thanks. really.

♥ I know we don't see each other too much and I know you don't take anything seriously, I want to you know that I'm always here. right? I love you dude. Always will.

♥ I miss you soooo much! we didn't get to celebrate our aniversary! *pouts* anyway, we celebrated when we pigged out in pizza hut! hahaha. for so many years, we still haven't changed huh? misssss you soooo much!

♥ Sigh. You! You! you were supposed to be my kuya. but you failed at it. You disappoint me, truly. Sigh. And yet, I can't get mad at you can I? I must be really crazy.

♥ Friend, thank you for comforting me everytime. And helping me with our work even if it's just the two of us. XD and you owe me next term! I have a 6 hour break coz of you.

♥ thanks for forcing me to join another org. It really helps me alot. I appreciate your "encouragement" all the time. My ballpen ha!

♥ thanks for helping me make it through. Especially during 3rd year. I appreciate it alot. een if I do bother you most of the time. :) thanks really. I'mma see you again soon~ hopefully.

♥ YOU! STOP BEING SO EFFIN BOSSY. seriously. it's not funny anymore.

♥ I miss hanging with you na! chikahan naman tayo soon~ hahaha. GUSTO KO ULIT KILIGIN. ehemehem. hahaha.

♥ thanks for the great times we hae so much fun. ddukppokee and noraebang soon? hahaha

♥ WOOOH! salamat sa pag influence ng GREEN-ness. lol. I'm glad I made the right choice. (right nga ba?)

♥ thanks for the patience with training. And understanding my "slow" brain and the excuses. I'm really having fun with everything right now.

♥ I'LL HOLD YOU TO YOUR PROMISE ARYT? hahaha

♥ I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I'll visit you soon okay? hopefully.

♥ Thanks for the advices and lessons. lol. And for the help with my fanfics. appreciate it alot.

♥ UNNIE!!! I hope to meet you soon. thanks for the crazy talks. ahahaha. I hope to visit you in cebu.

♥ Even if we had our dark days, I hope our friendship would grow stronger.next time, don't get too drunk.

♥ WAAAAHH~! bring DONGHAE BACK FROM KOREA! I MISS YOU! see you in february~~

♥ the last one. Even if we aren't friends anymore, I'd like to say thank you for the lesson you gave me. And, you're still in my heart. but we cant be friends anymore. I jut hope you're not mad anymore.

Now, guess which one is yours! :P

the NEW me.

2007-08-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

Listening to: who am I to say - hope

I just realized a few things today. Well, maybe just one thing.

When I was in highschool. I wasn't really the sociable type of person. Maybe because I just came back from a foreign country. So, I was sorta anti-social. I couldn't talk straight tagalog and I was enrolled in a "semi-private" school. pfft. chyea right.

Anyway, I really didn't get along with much of my schoolmates but I did have friends. Lots actually. hahahaha. So, anyway, 1st year was really troublesome. There's this byotch saying I stole her bestfriends from her, when in fact, people didn't really like her. Even her real bestfriend and her so-called "bestfriend". So yeah, she got mad at me. Anyway, we made up on the latter. 2nd year was really quiet. I did more studying cause my mom placed me on the first section.
Moving on to 3rd year and 4th year. Pfft. Most hated years of my life. Everyone acted super sensitive and just like little kids. Maybe it's because of the small population that's why people are like that THERE. Though I did have friends, I didn't feel that they were real friends during my 3rd year. Well, I tried to get along with them. But they didn't want to get along with me. Nuts to them huh? Yeah, so anyway I had my own set of friends too. Just outside of school. But in the end, we settled our differences and we got along with each other.

4th year was great. Though one of my friends got injured which was really the worst thing. So yeah, the last year was great. No fighting and everything was going so smooth. Lovelife was great too *winks* but it didn't last too long and I was on college already.

College. Wow. Going to college at 15 was overwhelming for me. LPEP, I had a great time meeting new friends and blockmates. I will never forget those 2 days. Classes started and I was happy. A happy student. Then I started to be interested in orgs so I joined them. I planned to join alot but I decided on 3 starting orgs, YFC-dlsu, Liga Historia and Santugon. I was excited. Excited on being active and having to meet new people. and I wasn't disappointed at all.

Everything was going great except for minor things that held back my life. It was all fine and I didn't even realize that I was changing.

2nd year came. I was excited yet again. I got a good position in my org, Liga Historia. Deputy for Activities. What a real achievement for me. Add to that, the position in Gawad Kalinga - DLSU, assistant publicity head. Plus, I finally decided to join De La Salle Debate Society.

I regret nothing. I am happy and proud of what I have and who I have become now. I am no longer the timid, anti-social, shy person I was. I'm now the entirely sociable, active, friendly and POWERFUL me.

And I am happy.

A daughter. A friend. A fangirl. A student. An officer. A volunteer. A debater.

Me.

Powerful.

and loving it.

Small Hopes

2007-07-02T19:49:00.000+08:00

Nationalism.

Truthfully, I have no idea about this thing. I'm doing this because of a homework I have in Citizenship and Governance class.

A little insight about nationalism. Nationalism. Devotion to the interests or culture of one's nation. The belief that nations will benefit from acting independently rather than collectively, emphasizing national rather than international goals. Aspirations for national independence in a country under foreign domination.

This is the meaning of nationalism in the dictionary. But when you ask of me, I think that nationalism means your love and admiration to your own country. No, it is not patriotism. Well, somehow, these two concepts are intertwined with each other. And more often than not, some people might mistake each one from the other. I have to be honest, I haven't felt this sense of nationalism in me. Why? because, I didn't grow up here in the Philippines. I haven't felt that sense of selfless love for my country. Though, I do want to make a difference here. I know, in this small hope, I can make my difference and develop that small sense of nationalism in me.

A little hope for a youth can do great things, if we wish to make that difference. And I certainly would be proud to serve my country for the betterment of the youth.

Talk about work...

2007-06-19T18:26:00.000+08:00

Mood: stressed
Listening to: Mal Hae - Battle

Talk about busy huh? Sigh. I decided to blog today cause of someone.

A friend of mine asked me what my orgs were. I answered that person properly and said, I had 5. Liga Historia, Gawad Kalinga, Debate Society, CSO and Tapat. Actually, alot of people ask me this question casue they always see me around. Then, that person asked again, "Donna, do you even breath? How do you manage it?" And I said, yes, I could manage it. I said that being busy and a workaholic is what I do. But, really, can I?

This is what happened to me today. After first class, I went to central plaza for Gawad Kalinga. It was fun, recruiting people. After that, I went to my second class and after that, we were supposed to have a meeting but it was moved to thursday. When I came back to the booth, Faye suddenly asked me to come to the 1MB GK Rally this thursday, of course I told her, I'd think about it cause I had a meeting. After accomplishing my Shifting papers and my application for majors, I went up to the department to get the papers signed and to pass the application. People weren't there so I decided to go back to the booth. I went around school to get a few requirements and get the stuff for histciv and humalit and went back to the department. I waited until 3 to get my papers signed. I went back to the booth to clean up and went to miguel to inquire about the shifting, went back to the booth again. Stayed for about an hour to finish a few paper work for Gawad Kalinga.

To tell the truth, today was really light. And I just realized, why do I ask myself on why I'm always tired and stressed when I'm the one whio's tiring and stressing myself.

Why am I doing all these? you might ask. Why do I want to do so many things, all at the same time. Why do I want to do so much work but I get pissed off with all of them? Why is it that I prefer to be active than everyone else?

Simple. I want to make a difference. I want to have a sense of self-fulfillment. I want to, just simple, be myself. I want my talents to be known to others. I want to be the leader that I see from others. I get mad at too much work, yes. Why? because on group works, no one would bother to help me. That's why I get mad. I can handle the work, all I was asking for is a little helping hand when I get too tired. I do have alot of things to do. No, I don't want to get mad, that's why I only smile with these people. I don't mind sharing the credit, I am not a selfish person anyway. All I ask for is a little help and respect.

I know, adding debate society to my organizations was almost crossing the red line. I know it was a hasty decision. But, this is something that I have always wanted to do. I want to learn to defend myself. To be confident to talk about what I believe in.

I'm sorry, to those people who might feel sad and sorta feeling bad because I don't have time for anyone anymore. I'm really sorry. I do this because I want to give difference. I want to explore myslef while I can. No, this does not mean that I am leaving my fangirling. I would never be me if I did that. What I'm saying is, I miss you guys and will miss you more. I'm sorry for not having so much time for everyone. If only I could control time, then I would give each prior time.

I do hope you all understand what I'm going through. I know that you might feel mad at me for ditching you guys on our scheduled dates. I do try my best to find time to meet with you all. I really really really miss everyone.

I can handle all these things that I am going into. Otherwise, why would I do something that I couldn't handle, right?

I dunno when I'll be updating my blog again. We had alot to do these past few days and for the next few days. Team buildings, meetings and also, midterms are coming. Sigh.

Ralph: hey, thanks for coming. I went to your xanga din ah! hahaha

ate dette: yay~~! hahaha yeah i think I have your number too~! ^^

jhocel: lol. binigay ko na yung link tapos may pinost ako na new link today lang. grabe battle mode din ako lately. and cute cute ni hwichannie~~!

No photo of the day, sorry. too busy.

till next time.

A memory worth keeping

2007-06-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

Mood: tired but happy
Listening to: my mom's voice talking on the phone XD

Long time no post huh? Sorry. Busy-ness is prevailing. Homeworks are getting difficult and I'm really busy with GK and Liga.

Well, first thing's first, I made friends with Agnes unnie. I'm reading her fic titled, swing swing. ^^; And she was reading my fic, Summer Games & Winter Skates. Plus, she's from the Philippines, so yeah, I'm being my friendly self. Anyway, hello unnie~! *waves*

Friday night was nikka's debut party. And I decided to go, I hour before we had to go. Hahahaha. Yeah we were supposed to go to Aruba in MoA but then, we decided on going to Temple bar in Greenbelt. It was pure fun. We had a great night out. Drinking, dancing and seeing people. I saw rica and some other friends from DLSU. Sigh. Temple is such a small place for DLSU peeps. I also saw Paolo, from Liga. hahaha. It was so fun. I met new people. Well, went home at 3AM. Barely slept hahaha.

Anyhoo, yesterday we went to Mimosa, Clark, Pampanga. I thought, my gosh what am I going to do there, overnight, with no one to be with. Get this, when we arrived, my dad's relatives were there. And so, I thought, yes.. so I have some people to be with. When I heard my second cousins were there, I got energetic. XD

So, yeah just chilled for a while, went around, checked out the pool area. It was sorta small but I saw my cousins there. When I got back, I just lounged around the room and did nothing but txt. ahaha. I was waiting for my other cousins and they arrived at about 6:30 PM. They went to subic to buy beer and vodka ice. When they arrived, we just chatted and then went to the small arcade house. They played a bit, I just watched. I only played air hockey. hahaha. After the games, we went back to our villa. Stayed for a while, then we went to the basketball court.

At the basketball court, I just watched them play. Cause I really don't know how to play. XD they played 3 on 3 with some guys there. Cause I had for 4 guy cousins, and I was the only girl great? hahaha. After playing 3 on 3, they played again, 4 or 4. This time it was so funny cause they got served. wooh! hahaha. Their opponent's score, 24. Their score.... nevermind. XD ahahaha.

After basketball, went back to the villa, ate dinner. After eating dinner, we sat on the little table. And they played pusoy. Sorry I really don't know how to play that. I only know tongits and poker. XD They played poker until like 12:30 AM. Hahaha. While they played, I sorta went around the house. Played with the little kids and sang at the karaoke. They I continued to watch them play pusoy, still. And then, Justin suddenly perked up to go to starbucks and everyone suddenly wanted to go. So we all did. XD

Yeah, starbucks at 1 AM. We roamed around Clark. JJ was the one driving. It was so funny during the ride cause we were so cramped and it was such a disaster but fun really. Anyway, we didn't find an open starbucks. Sad. But we did find a coffee shop so we went there. No choice. We ordered frapuccino-like drinks that super suck. Their caramel machiatto tasted like 3-in-1. ahahahaha. But it was more bonding time for us.

Went back at around 2:30 AM. The ride was sorta quiet. It was okay. hahaha. Fun. I was getting sleepy already. As soon as we got back, little preparation, small talks then we went to sleep.

The morning, people woke me up to eat at Mcdo. ahahaha. Funny. I was so sleepy so I just stood up and went to the car. Hahahaha. So yeah we ate at mcdo then after a while, we went to fontana to go to the water park. We went to the slides, wave pool, lazy river, and there.

It was for a short while but I had fun. It was just like last year's reunion. We had our little talks and bonding sessions. So yeah, now I don't regret going to Mimosa and Fontana. Fun-filled long weekend.

Tagboard replies~~!

ate dette: let's schedule ha! I wanna eat korean food. its in BF lang naman eh. *winks* wooh! I miss ddokppokee!!!!!!!!

agnes unnie: oh yes eunhae forever. you gotta love those two. XD thanks for dropping by.

SunMi: XD hahaha sorry di ako nakasama sa lunch T__T miss you love.

alive and kicking

2007-06-01T20:29:00.000+08:00

Mood: tired and busy
Listening to: Mal Hae - Battle

Yes, I am alive and kicking! ahahaha. But I am tired and doing alot lately.

Yes, classes have officially started for me last May 23, 2007. First day was so much fun for me. First class was 2:30 but I decided to go to school early because I went and had lunch with Dia, Jesse and Jaika. It was so much fun we talked alot alot alot. hahaha I know it was sorta scary. well, actually me and Dia were the ones yapping our mouths away.

Classes are good. Profs are good. Some are such asses and some are so funny. One even looks like shrek. Okay don't kill me. hahaha. Well, org work is starting again. Annual Recruitment Week on June 11. But wait, isn't June 11 a holiday? Stupid president switching the regular holidays. Grrrr.

Lately have been back on SuJu, so what's new? hahaha. It's just, right now I was to be serious in school consistently. Yes, I am turning myself into a little nerd. Oh, and I got into GK super unexpectedly. So great right? aahahahha. Anyway, I'm under publicity so it's sorta alright. We are so plenty anyway. Not much work there but the little work is heavy. Complicated? Mucho. Yeah, on June 9 we'll be having an ukay ukay thing in Alabang. ahahaha. Yes, publicity. >//<

Oh, I saw him yesterday. He smiled at me, so did I. When he passed by, I started to cry. Stupid right? Does that mean I'm not mad at him anymore? Does that mean we're okay? Did I let my stupid pride down with just a goofy smile? Maybe I'm just going crazy. Paranoid. I dunno. I told everyone and myself that I don't care anymore but who am I kidding right? No, I am not crying right now. I don't have the tears to do so. It's just, I'm frustrated. Frustrated because he's driving me crazy. One minute he doesn't know me, the other he smiles at me just like before. And thinking of the past are the ones that brings me to tears. I've been through alot just because of him. Because of his sweet txts and words. Because I thought he was actually real. And he was. But now, he became a dream again.

Drama noh? And It's only been a week in school. I know.

So many things happened this week that I can't even start. hahaha.

May 25, my birthday. Midnight, everyone was counting down on me. As in SjPhils peeps, Camille, Che. hahaha. Especially mommy che. She was so pasimple pa when she was counting down on me. I know she was sleepy already but she stayed up until 12 to greet me. She also gave me a comment in friendster. Yeah, I am smiling. Why? I know Che. She's not touchy, she's not to expressive. She wants people to see this strong side of her but I know better than that. I should. She's like this twin sister of mine. And I don't regret of leaving 2 people behind for her.

Anyway, my birthday. In school, a few people greeeted me during the morning but the afternoon, SDF sang happy birthday to me on the halls of the 10th floor. The shame but it was sweet. During the late afternoon, Che, my cousin and I went for a movie in MoA. We were supposed to watch pirates but it was going to end so late already so we settled for Shrek 3. It was alright. Quite fun. hahaha. Then we ate at a Korean Resto. Yes, yummy. Sam Gyup Sal love.

May 27, Me, Ekah and May watched Pirates! Finally! Johnny Depp love. Yeah baby. Ekah was so funny spazzing about Johnny Depp but yes, he is pure love. The movie was so funny and so worth watching in the big screen. I so loved it.

Uh, I forgot when that was, but me, tin, Deb and her sister ate at a bunshik restaurant. I finally have eaten ddok ppok ee. Yes! It wasn't that spica so I really loved it. I also ate soon dae, tuna kimbap, ddok ee (?). I so wanna go back and eat some more! wooh! It was so delicious I got so full. And I know where that Korean BunShik is. Anyone want to come with me? hahaha. Let's go korean food tripping. You're going to love it.

What else can I blabb about? Oh, I LOVE THE CHOCOLATES THAT CHERILYN GAVE ME. I call them, stress relievers. hahaha.

Anyway, I know it's been such a long time. And It's a new Month, So, here's a new layout. EunHae love. Spread it. EUNHAE IS MY OTP.

DongHae's foreHAEd. I so hate the hairstyle. Seriously pissed with the hair. But his expression, priceless. I still love you I swear. Lee DongHae is love. I don't have a comment on this picture. I just want to share a recent one. so there.

last day of my so-called vacation

2007-05-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

Mood: random. -.-
Listening to: Anymotion - Hyori

Long time no post huh? been kinda busy with the freshman welcoming and the pre-birthday celebration. I'll be sharing pictures whenever I am not too lazy to transfer pictures from phone to computer.

Freshmen Welcoming during the 17th was FUN. It was nice seeing the newest batch. LPEP 2k7 was a success. And I, am no longer a freshman student. T_T I've grown old. ahaha kidding.

I woke up 6:30 AM because Kimber said that we should meet up at 7:30 in starbucks. Great. It was soo early. Anyway, I was so excited because I would also be seeing Dan and Gerty that same day and I would also meet Jaika because she's going to study in DLSU. So, yeah I was in starbucks vito cruz at about 7:15 because I hate being late. 7:30 came and Joanna and me were the only ones there. Nice right? Then Marie and Rita came at about quarter to 8. We sat there chatting and stuff about Japan, studying MAs, Team Building, Activities for the term and year and of course, fangirling. Would you believe? ahaha. My orgmates are fangirls. But not the same as me. they like Japanese Manga and stuff. Kimbr arrived at almost 11. Seriously, I was sorta pissed by that thought. We were cramming our booth already. Anyway, I'll let it pass for now.

The welcoming was fun. I wore Slytherin Quidditch robes. Yes it was freaking hot. believe me. But, it was so fun and refreshing to welcome the new froshies in school. I never expected that I would also welcome the new student as soon as my sophomore year. It was nice because I can really remember myself looking so clueless and walking arould the orgs that were shouting "welcome to La Salle!" So yeah, there. It was fun. And the freshmen really grew this year. I dunno how many blocks there was but they were plenty. I met Jaika along the way when we were welcmong the freshmen. :D

After the welcoming I dashed back to starbucks to meet Gerty and Dan. So, yeah, random addiction going on. I was really sleepy that time. So, yeah we kept on chatting about fics and randomness and then Ekah came by as well. We were so noisy that time it was crazy. After meeting with the sisters, Ekah came over at my place and we watched vids like we always do.

May 19, the pre-birthday celebration. Ahahaha. It was fun. May, Ekah, Edline, Faye, Fil, Nikka and ate Tin came by so I was so happy. I actually thought that there would be lesser people who could come and I thought wrong. ^^ It was fun. Eating and chatting with my friends all together. though we couldn't very well much understand each other. Ahahaha. We were all talking about different things. XD

I'll post pics next time. Fayee spoiled me again and gave me a teddy bear and cake. I love you fayee.

Tomorrow school starts and I am psyched! wooh! XD Lunch with Dia, Jaika and Jesse weee~~~!

Tagboard replies~~~!

ate Rica: rofl. perfection. ahahaha. Hindi nga maganda eh. =.= ahahah. Grabe mga super busy sa buhay. Sorry at hindi din ako masyado maka basa ng blog nyo dahil medyo pre-occupied ako magpapasukan na tomorrow. T__T

Ate Nadz: Oh yes~! lalo n yung manwoni haengbok. SuJu T with Epik High is love. Grabe yung nagtabi si tablo at hyuk. I died. hahaha. Malapit na ako magpalit ng layout. Maybe on my birthday but I'm not too sure. ^^

Ate Dette: Hello~~! it's okay ate. Si Ate Tin inexplain na sakin ok lang yun noh. Hahaha. Next time nalang. ^^; and sa 25 pa birthday ko pero thanks din. ;) miss you.

Ate Marga: tinatamad ako i-post sa cyworld eh. hahaha sa blog nalang mas madali XD ahahaha.

The picture that made my month and yesterday so great.

DongHae's uber smexyness that I still can't get over with. Sigh. *drools* My mouth was watering all night because of his darn smexyness. If I don't get married, you know who to blame. ahahaha. Life couldn't get better with Super Junior. I want a perfect replica of Lee DongHae. Too demanding? ahahaha. Can't help it. A man has already satisfied me and that is Lee DongHae.

it's so hard to find a man. Since you've already found the one you want to have. the only problem is, he doesn't know you exist.

Priceless Moment...

2007-05-15T16:19:00.000+08:00

Mood: bored
Listening to: Come to me - M.I.L.K.

from L-R: Me, Precious, Fil, Jobelle, Nikka

This picture. A priceless moment where me and my high school friends got together. See how busy I am? I can't even get together with my friends or even know what's happening to them. And last Saturday I finally got that chance again.

If my memory isn't failing me, Precious and Nikka called me up last thursday. They told me Jobelle would be having her debut on May 12. And so, I couldn't bail out on my friends could I? especially when I haven't seen them since forever. Especially Precious. It's been 1 year since we saw each other. So, naturally, I said I'd go. And especially after what happened to Jobelle, it was our obligation to give special attention to her.

So, May 12, at around 3 PM I went to Fil's place with my cousin. We waited for Precious to arrive and the 3, err, 4 of us, went over Jobelle's place at about 5. So, we chilled and waited for Nikka to arrive. It was so cliche that the 4 of us were wearing black dresses. We looked like we're going to dance and stuff. Anyway, so yeah, most of her guests were lower class and we were at it again. Our usual hobby when we were 4th year. Buzzing like busy bees talking. Ahahaha. We really didn't like the other kids from our school, what can we do.

The party was okay. I was part of the 18 candles. After the party, tita brought the Novellino and another drink which was non-alcoholic. My gosh. Nikka drank all the novellino and some more drink that I don't really know. I only drink the non-alcoholic one. I dunno what's happening but Nikka was so drunk. She even had a "heart attack" I dunno.

There was so much to talk about that day. But we had such little time. But I had the best time ever. I missed my high school friends so bad. really. I missed out on so much from them. And the same goes for them to me. But that day was beyond awesome. Jobelle changed alot too.

These past few days, I've been going back and forth to UST. I'm accompanying my cousin to get his stuff because he's going to transef to a different school. And we went swimming last Sunday. That's it I guess. I'm really sleepy. ahaha.

On the 19th, my high school friends, college friends, and adik clan will come so I'm really happy. I'm anticipating for it. anyway, I need to type up chapter 5 for Mommy Che. toodles.

Oh, tagboard replies~~~!

SunMi: you'll be forever sunmi sasakalin kita eh! ahahahaha. I MISHU too. cge cge penge ako I so wanna see the prettiest sungmin ever.

Ate Ana: Yeah, I'm getting by medyo pissed off lang. Sigh. I'm pissed off with everyone. Pero baka dahil sa monthly thing lang to. :) I MISS YOU!!

Jhocel: ahahaha! kahawig nga ni tablo si eunhyuk eh~! ahahaha. pwede na sila maging triplets grabe. Oo adik ako sa kanta ng epik high ngayon.

SunYe: Ahahahaha. edi go after your class. Dinner pa naman yun eh. Kasi sa morning and afternoon nasa school ako. hahahaha miss na kasi kita eh!

Mommy Kai: ahahaha! of course~! rofl. I miss you narin sobra!

New Layout

2007-05-08T19:39:00.000+08:00

Mood: Sleepy
Listening to: Love Love Love - Epik High

^^; New layout. ehehehe. I dunno why just felt like it.

Just today, I'm starting to learn to play the piano. My mom recently bought an organ for my sister and cousin's voice lessons so there. And I was so addicted to learning Canon in D Minor. Yeah, I want to learn to play it. I'm such a dork.

Anyway, the layout. Ahahaha. Since almost all of my layouts we're SuJu-centric, here's a my-life-centered layout. You can see pics of me with a few of my friends. and of course, SuJu pics. You could see a bunch of words or sentences there as well, those are the lyrics of Fly by Epik High. I was so inspired to make a new layout just because. ahahaha. And also, there's a line from Miracle, life couldn't get better and yes, life definitely couldn't get better with my friends and Super Junior.

Lately, I've been blog hopping and browsing random friendsters and I found a few old people that I knew. Yes, knew. Well, I still know them but... ahahaha. Anyway, people really change fast don't they? Sigh. When I fould their sites and pages I was really shocked. I won't say anything anymore. I was just really shocked. I didn't expect those people to be like that. I never did. Anyway, I won't meddle with other people anymore.

Today, I went to Manila Doctors with my cousin. I met up with Fayee because I really really really missed her sooo much. Sigh. We just joked and chatted there for like 30 minutes. It was fun seeing her again. Also, Bechy, she's the daughter of my mom's friend, was here because she also took voice lessons. I also recently bought Scary Korean movies and Hwangjini. So, I'll be busy watching dvds.

I still haven't received the email from Kimber about the materials needed for freshmen welcoming. I am seriously psyched up for it. waaah I'm also excited to see Jaika, Dia and Jesse soon. Before, there was me and mommy Che, and now, new family. I'm happy. :)

AND!

a new feature for my blog. It's random. err Pic of the Day and Review. ^^ starting today! This is really random. I'll feature any picture that I would come across. And today the picture is....

Tablo. I really like the effect of this picture. The yelow and white hue is interesting and the angles and lighting to tablo is also love. I dunno what this picture is for because I got this from Tablo's cyworld. But it is indicated on the picture that it's from vogue girl. Tablo looks so hot here. He also looks like HyukJae. Sigh. Tablo, my almost perfect guy. ahahaha.

Well, that's it. I'm off to play piano again. toodles~

My Summer

2007-05-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

Mood: NOT sleepy.
Listening to: I'm your girl - SES

Okay so I haven't been updating in such a long time. As some people might know I'm sorta busy with freshmen welcoming right now. And add to that, my cousins had an extended vacation over at my place these past few days so we've been sharing the computer.

Anyway, We watched Spiderman 3 already. Last Saturday. It was really sudden because we planned to watch it Sunday but instead we watched it a day earlier. It was sorta okay. I dunno. I expected more marvelous special effects. As usual, Mary Jane was such a bitch again. Shoot me, I really don't like her since the beginning. It was fine for me. I'd give it a 2.5 hehehe.

We've been having meetings about the freshmen welcoming. Planning and brainstorning and making last minute changes with the preparations. I'm really excited for it. Time really does fly fast. Just last year, I was the one going through what freshmen are going through right now. And now, I'm the one who's included in the welcoming for them.

Hollywood bowl just finished yesterday I guess. DongHae seems so sad or something. He barely smiles in the pictures. I was so excited when I heard that Epik High was liking in KiBum's place with Super Junior! waaah~! Tablo + DongHae + EunHyuk = LOVE. Now I suddenly wished that I went to the states already. ahahaha.

Yesterday, I asked Edline to come at our house and have a sleepover. And she did. We just watched a korean movie and Hana Yori Dango. We didn't even get to finish it because we came down and sang with the rest of my family members. It was really funny since the boys are all try to reach high notes. ahaha. But they couldn't. I got the highest score! 90! wooh! ahahaha.

Today, I went with my mom, sister and cousins to SM Southmall. I was supposed to buy my clothes for my birthday already but... mom said it's better to buy at Mall of Asia, so alright. Well, it's true there are more shops in Mall of Asia but I've already decided on what to wear for my birthday. ahaha. It's a surprise but I really find it cute. My mom just bought clothes for my sister and cousins since my cousins didn't get to bring much clothes. After that, we met up with my moms' friend and ate at the foodcourt. Gian, a son of my mom's friend and my friend/co-schoolmate was there. I only found out when my cousin told me. Anyway, we chatted through lunch. It was nice seeing him again. Okay, I admit I have a bit of a crush for him. He's sorta cute too. ahahaha. Anyway, my mom went back to the department store to buy drinking glasses because we didn't have much anymore. I decided to roam around myself. I bought a cute baby blue cellphone charm to add to what Mommy Che gave me. I also took my sister's cellphone charm because it was just laying around in the room. So now, I have about 3 cellphone charms which are all fuzzy. ahahaha.

Tomorrow I'll be going to Manila Doctors in Macapagal Highway. I'll help out my cousin with his transferries in school. He used to go to UST but he didn't reach the cut off so, he's going to transfer schools instead.

Sigh. My birthday's coming up and I still haven't decided on what to do. On the 24th me and mommy che will watch pirates of the carribean 3. I am so darn excited for it. The trailer is love. So is Harry Potter. Kimber even said that the last 20 minutes or so of the movie will be 3D! wooh! DANIEL RADCLIFFE IS BUFF DUDES. ahahaha. I'm waiting for my Wondergirls' perf of I'm your girl. It's taking forever.

Tagboard replies~!

jaika: can't wait to see you soon~ rofl. I'll change the links when I have time.

ate nadz: WOOH TABLO!!! ahaaha. Yesh he ish love! waah finally someone who loves tablo as well~ rofl. I love him sa Non-stop 5! super cute ng role nya dun.

May: adik ka. magpakita ka sa wednesday ha!

ate dette: yup yup. I'm such a babo. ahaha. wala lang classes for a few weeks nakalimutan ko na meaning ng TLS. ahahaha.

On the 19th, I'll be having a tied celebration with my dad. To my friends who could come, txt me. I'll be fetching people on DLSU-Manila. I'd appreciate it if you'd come. If you want you could aslo sleepover. *winks* we'd watch vids and perfs all night. ahahaha.

Addicted to tablo

2007-04-28T10:41:00.000+08:00

mood: Sleepy still
listening to: Love Love Love - Epik High

Yeah, seriously I'm still sorta sleep. I just got off from bed just to check if my parents were still at home and it turned out that my mom was still here, anyway, she's gone now.

I am now seriously in love with tablo. After watching couple of Non-Stop 5 episodes, Love Letter and X-Man guestings, Ya Shi Man Man guesting and radio show addictions with Brian and Eru, and oh man, I so love him.

Love Love Love, Fan and Fly are all stuck in repeat all in my ipod. hahaha. I dunno I find Tablo amazing. He's one hell of a rapper, a great actor (hilarious in non-stop), he's comedic, he's smart (standford university baby!), a great singing voice, the one thing lacking is the dance skills. If he could dance like DongHae, don't fret, I'll still love DongHae. hahaha

Ah, these past few days have been fine and I've been slacking off watching Love Letter and a bunch of other things on youtbue. Nonstop in particular. Aish, nothing to blog about huh? Later I'm going out with Edz, going to vito cruz then I dunno. hahaha.

Anyway, I'm going off for lunch. Till next time.

Eye candies

2007-04-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

Mood: Still dizzy
Listening to: Fan - Epik High
Oh yeah, here's an entry to my newest eye candies.

Tablo

The dorky, scrawny, hyukkie look-a-like rapper of epik high. He's one of my newest eye candies because of brian, suju T and star golden bell. hahaha Oh my goodness. Tablo grew up in the states which means he's excellent in english. which means we could understand each other if ever. hahaha. Tablo is such an amazing rapper he's also an amazing person. He's really smart. He studied in Standford University. Ahem. Yesh, I actually did my homework this time. I love tablo for his adorable humor and aegyo-ness.

Wentworth Miller

The hot lead guy from prison break, Wentworth Miller is definitely eye candy. He's from England. Coolness. He's a british hottie. He was born June 2, 1972. Okay, so he's been in alot of movies already but it's just recently that I've noticed him really. Well, because I was so addicted in watching Prison Break so now, he's my eye candy.

Well, that's about it. I'm getting really dizzy now. I gotta go.

Adik05 is sick...

2007-04-26T12:30:00.000+08:00

Mood: Dizzy
Listening to: Candy - HOT

Okay, I know I have been absent for quite a while now. But I have been constantly updated with what is happening to Super Junior especially KyuHyun, Eeteuk, HyukJae and ShinDong. And I am glad to say that they are doing well and KyuHyun and Eeteuk are getting better and I am glad.

Well, last week friday, I was throwing up so bad and I fainted. Okay not so good right? Anyway, I didn't tell anyone about it except the very person that I always tell when I'm in the hospital. You know who you are. Why? I didn't want to alarm my friends anymore. It was enough that they were worrying about KyuHyun and the other suju members health. I didn't want to bring them my burden anymore. Anyway, it wasn't that serious... errr... on the contrary, never mind. hahaha.

I'm getting better since yesterday. Though when I get up from bed I still get dizzy. Right now I'm using my dad's laptop and I am still in bed watching Prison Break and bumming off.

In speaking of Prison Break, I finished Season 1 and 2 already! Hurrah! But it was such a cliffie. Aish. Nonetheless, Wentworth Miller is damn hot! I've been endowed with his hot hot hot voice and hot serious look. I am so loving the guy.

Another thing, I've been watching funny clips of Brian Joo, Bae Seul Gi and Tony Ahn in YouTube. They keep me sane enough lately. Seriously, I am so loving Bae Seul Gi so much!! During course card day, I was with Tin and I sang KangHan YeoJa and Tomboy because of my Seul Gi addiction.

Also, during the course card day, I got my SuJu T album. I said I won't but it but... hahaha. It was available in Ok Books so I bought it. That day was lucky for me but it turned out that others weren't. Suju, to say it particular, KyuHyun, EeTeuk, HyukJae and ShinDong. Anyway, they're recovering aren't they? so that's good.

I downloaded new Kara perfs and I accidentally downloaded the Special Stage with Hyori so I figured, I'll also download the toc toc toc and oh my goodness Kara + Hyori is pure love. It was so good really. I loved it alot.

Oh, and did I mention that I have a new layout? Sorry, I might have missed it.

Tagboard replies!!

Ate dette: Oh yeah! JUNJIN'S SINGLE IS LOVE. HE'S SO HOT SA PICS.

Ate Ana: I miss you!! T__T and I'm okay na. don't worry. Ingat ka dyan.

Mommy Kai: thanks mommy. *hugs*

My head is spinning so bad, my BP is shooting up again, I'm going to go. Catch you next time.

Sigh...

2007-04-18T14:00:00.000+08:00

Mood: Sad and crying
Listening to: Miahn Han Maeum - Wonder Girls

These past few days, I had been so busy with work and stuff. And I am seriously tired and still stressed. My summer vacation has really become solely summer now.

These past few days as well, a dear friend of mine has been having alot of problems. That night that we went out, she acquired bad news from her school and I was doing something for school and my grandfather that I was cramming already. I felt really guilty because I couldn't talk to her that well because of my work. The next day, another bad thing came her way and I couldn't talk to her because of my job. And these past few days, she's been having alot of problems and I couldn't talkt to her that well. She would IM me in MSN and I couldn't even give her a bit of my attention, a bit of serious and meaningful answers, but instead, I rush.

Seriously, I hate myself for this. I know, I wanted these jobs and positions. I worked hard and well to achieve what I have right now and I am proud of myself for this. It's not that I'm regretting having these jobs, it's just I hate myself for having no time for my friends especially when they need me. And when I need them, they're always there for me.

I feel like I am such a bad person for being like this. I feel so bad because I couldn't help her. I couldn't help my friend who needs me during those times. I've become too much of a workaholic.I feel so bad because it feels like I'm turning my back on them. It feels like I'm neglecting them of my time and attention which I don't normally do to my friends. I've become such a bad person to my friends.

I've given so little attention to the things that gives me happiness. Super Junior. These 13 men that paved the way to give me awesome friends. I have not yet forgotten about them of course, who could? Though they turned my life into a roller coaster ride, I am thankful for it. For all the sad and happy moments of these early few months of the year, I am thankful. I am thankful that I am loving Super Junior.

These friends I have now, friends from school and forums, are the best friends that I could ever ask for. They have been nothing but real friends to me. My friends from school, you know who you are and I don't want to mention names anymore, thank you for understanding me. Thank you for accepting me for who I am and what I am. Thank you for sharing fun moments with me. You guys are really fun and nice to be with. Very supportive and understanding people that I will forever cherish. I hope this friendship will continue until we leave DLSU.

To my friends from forums, unnies, dongsaengs and friends, sorry for not being so active in forums anymore. And I thank that you all welcome me with open arms whenever I have time to return to the forum. Thank you for consoling me in times of my problems and for telling me the complete truth all the time. I know, we can't be forever fangirls, but we can forever be friends right? To my unnies, my ever undertsanding unnies, thank you for the advices. You don't know how much those little advices mean to me. My dongsaengs, thank you for the advices and support as well. You all have become my strong wall of courage and confidence. You guys don't know how much you all mean to me. I may not be able to show it often but, you all are always in my heart.

to all my friends, I'm really sorry. I'm sorry for giving little attention to all of you. I've become such a person that doesn't deserve your friendship. Thank you for all the things that you've done for me. All those consoling and also those happy days. I hope you could all understand what I am going through right now. And thank you for understanding as well. But no matter what happens, if I'm busy or anything else, I'm still here. Just drop me and SMS or an IM and I'll try my best to talk. You guys know that right? Thank you for sharing meaningful memories with me. May it be sad or happy, I am thankful for you have shared a point of your life with me.

No, this is not my will, this is neither my dying letter, this is simly my way of saying sorry and thank you. I hope you'll continue to support me and be my friend.

I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

Dooly Snacks?!

2007-04-16T12:48:00.000+08:00

Mood: bored
listening to: Irony - ~~Window~~ Wonder Girls

Bwahahaha~! windowgirls. Oh, in speaking of windowgirls, I made icons for us. Of course featuring wondergirls. Just 5 though. Because wondergirls only has 5 members. =0=

anyway, I already watched the KM World opening perf by SuJu. KRY sang Han Saram Maneul. YehSung missed the high notes big time. but it was okay. Next up was SuJu T. And on the near end of the song, the rest of the SuJu members started going out one by one and singing Rokugoh. And I started tearing up when they showed DongHae singing. I so so so missed them performing. And I was still crying until the end of U. I was so happy that I had to cry.

I visited May's Cyworld because she told me to and I saw Dooly Snacks! what the heck. Dooly snacks!?

And I am getting more and more addicted to Kara now. I watched their perf last night. And I updated my ipod with songs that I know. =0= hahaha.

Yesterday I was with Ekah we were in starbucks spreading our addiction. And I have a charger for my phone now so I have a phone again! yey~!

anyway, I'll blabb more later or next time. I'm going to take a bath. toodles~

Summer Vacation.... Yay??

2007-04-14T10:40:00.000+08:00

Mood: Just woke up.
Listening to: Go Baek Ha Gi Jo Eun Nal - Go YounHa

Yeah, it is officially my summer vacation. or should I cancel out the vacation and just call it summer? After the final exams last thrusday, I'm still going to be in school for Meetings, meetings and more meetings for me. And to mention, frosh welcoming.

Well, hell week is over and here I am again. And I changed my layout. Hae and Min. Of course. I made the banner but it my computer got reformatted and luckily, I showed it to Ekah so she has it in her files. So, here it is. My crappy photoshop. =0=

These past few days, I've been having my random Kara addiction. Yes, I am starting to love Kara now. SungHee is so gorgeous really. Rawr. hahaha. And we're supposed to be wondergirls. great. >.<

Last monday, Me and edline went to Kbooks. Well, not only Kbooks but also, Glorietta, SM Makati, MoA and SM Sucat. We had the ultimate mall trip. Anyway, yeah, we went to Kbooks and I bought JunJin's Single which was pure love. It was a good buy and I'm glad I bought it. I was supposed to buy Battle's single but it wasn't there anymore.

After Kbooks we went back to Glorietta and ate at Kaya, the Korean Restaurant. We had a great lunch. hahaha. Bulgogi, JapChae, KimChi. We were so full after eating. After that, we went window shopping at SM Makati and at Glorietta as well.

Then we had the urge to go to MoA, so we did. ahahaha. I bought a HyunAh-like sleeveless turtleneck there. Yes, I am really owning up to it. Next time I'm going to buy the vests that we found at forever21 and People are People. After MoA, we went to Sm Sucat to buy chocopies. ahahaha. Because it was cheaper there.

It was a total trip that day but I had so much fun. I'll skip the hell part because I really don't want to talk about the headaches. hahaha.

Yesterday I was at school again to help out for the summer seminar at school. I just typed a bunch of names in the computer. And it's confirmed, Chair for Activities baby!

Anyway, summer is starting and I'm going to update my fics soon. hahaha.

I'm going to eat lunch, toodles!

New Layout

2007-04-09T20:42:00.000+08:00

Mood: dizzy
Listening to: Success - Super Junior

Seriously, I just took a break from all the studying. intglos is driving me nuts.

Anyway, as you all can notice, I changed layouts. it was supposed to be sungmin and donghae but my computer got reformatted and I lost the layout and the pic. but if ekah sends it back, I can make the layout again. ^^;

Anyway, that's it. Finals week = hell week. I'll be back on thursday. ^^

What a busy life

2007-04-07T10:49:00.000+08:00

Mood: Sleepy
Listening to: Perhaps Love - Howl and J

Waaaah!!! I so missed blogging. T__T I know I haven't been updating. I missed Dan's Birthday, EunHyuk's birthday but I'm back with SiWon's! waaah~!!

Ahahahaha! Well, last March 31-April01, we were in Batangas! the trip that me and Ekah we're so psyched about. The nihgt before, Edz and Ekah kept on txting me. And I slept at about 3 Am and woke up at 5:30 by Edline. Pfft. It was so early. Aish. So, I got up and everyone kept on txting me already. At first I slacked off at my room then went downstairs. I took a bath at about 6 Am and left at home at quarter to 8. I arrived at KFC DLSU at 8:15 or so? But yeah, Ekah and Edz were there already. We even went to McDo and I saw Hugh and Mel. They're going to GK.

Anyway, we left as soon as Dan arrived. We talked alot on the car and an ahjummah even punished us. Pfft. Well, we were so noisy but, hello!? it was too much. What's her problem. Moving on, the ride was so much fun. We kept on talking and talking. hahaha.

What we basically did there was watch suju vids and bonded with Gerty, Jaika, Mich and her sister Andrea. I seriously had fun. On the afternoon part, we watched Love Letter and some vids. Then me and Dan went to the Main city to get her cake which was humongous. But nonetheless, we brought it home by jeepney. hahaha.

In the evening, there were ALOT of people. Well, I understand since it was Dan's debut. So, Ekah, Edz and I dressed up with Gerty, Jaika, Mich and Andrea. I even did Gerty's make up and she looked so pretty. I'm proud of my work. I'm glad I bought the black dress from Maldita, it was so cute, but it was sorta slipping down. hahaha. But it was so adorable. Dan's debut was a success, though May was called but she wasn't there.

The latter part, we drank bitter juice with Jaika, Mich, Andrea, Gerty. Yesh, it is bitter juice according to DBSG. After that, we went downstaird to sing in the karaoke and we were seriously looking for korean songs. So, after that we went to our room, and yeah, I'll skip the drama part but I was glad to let it out. The powers of bitter juice. pfft.

The next day, we just took a bath, watched more vids and went home at about 4 PM. It was so much fun. And I wish we can do it again.

Anyway, after that classes and blahs. Then, last tuesday and wednesday, adik clan invaded my house again.

Tuesday, Ekah and Edz went here. We just watched Wondergirls and Suju T. Then the accompanied me to school then we went to MoA to buy korean snacks then went back at home to watch vids again. hahaha.

Wednesday, May and Edz cam again for Hyukkie's birthday. We ate alot of random food. Watched vids and used the computer ofr a while. Pfft. nothing much happened. Adik clan was just bumming around.

Thursday and friday, we went to Cavite for an over night. pfft. swimming overnight but I was so bored. and I got a bit darker.

Anyway, that's it. Wednesday and Thrusday I have my finals. T__T I'm going to study. Toodles.

Do you know Dullie? XD

2007-03-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

Mood: Happy and tired
Listening to: I think I - Byul - Full House OST

I know! I haven't been updating my blog for a few days now. hahaha. Here's a 3-day worth of blogging.

Saturday. May came over at home. She arrived here at about 3 PM. And we started watching vids on my room. As usual. hahaha. We were watching SuJu Show, Thailand Episodes. Where Daddy Eeteuk kisses everyone to sleep and wakes them up in the morning. It was super hilarious. Hahaha. When it was in ShinDong and HanKyung's room, we suddenly say Ramyun. I really missed ramyun. So, we decided to buy some. We went out and went over to 7-11. But, there was no ramyun. T_T. Instead of eating ramyun, we bought Cookies and Cream ice cream, chocopie and YanYan chocolate and Strawberry.

I swaer, we had a sugar high. We started reminiscing about an episode of Star Golden Bell. DongHae was asking the girl, Dullie's friend, do you know dullie? hahaha. It was so cute. We kept on imitating him. Also KangIn with his definition of stocking. Lady socks, kopi color... okay... uhm, 2 style... panty style and short style. puhahaha! HanKyung with his Jja jang pong friend and mandu servisu. hahahahah. Super fun.

We also watched X-man. EunHye and her assaults with Kang Ho Dong about being a pig. Also the X-man, feat DBSG. JaeJoong kept on saying sorry to ChangMin! Daddy Junsu's "MuSeun?" Assault was also fun. May! Darren Mu Seun? hahaha. Chicken MuSeun? hahaha.

We kept on dancing and singing on the chairs in front of the computer! Hyper to the highest level!

Sunday. Nothing happened. Okay, so the night part, we had a despidida party for my cousins, uncles, aunties, who went back to the US this morning. that was it.

Monday. Rawr. Today. Craze to the Nth level. After Intglos class, I was with my friends, as per usual. We just talked on the room near the teacher's elevator. Then. Prinsipe Kelvin, or should I say, Prinsipe Gian suddenly appeared on our floor. And naturally, all of us we're spazzing. "Si prinsipe gian!!! hahaha." It was so funny. They took pictures with him again. It was joy. Kaspil class, Cam sat in again. One again, because of Enchong Dee. Waaah she even took "notes" hahaha. wtf. It was so hilarious. She gagged the things that Sir. Bascarra was lecturing about.

I hate my computer these days. It keeps on lagging. grrr. I am so going to throw this computer out of the window. Aish. Anyway, I am so excited for Batangas! wooh! Batangas on Saturday!!! With adik clan. My beloved adik clan. I am so missing Gerty already. Dan told me to bring SoJu!!!! Wooh! Inuman na!!

March 22: The Adik Clan Day

2007-03-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

Mood: Dizzy @__@
Listening to: One Love - Loveholic - Spring Waltz OST

WOHOO. I am soo happy even if I'm extrememly dizzy. hahaha. Yesterday was the ultimate Noraebang day.

Yesterday, I went to PE class. And we planned and practiced for the Synchronized swimming for the finals. It was sorta okay. We were trying to figure out our music and tried to do a couple of moves on the water. Mind you, it was extrememly exhausting even if we did it for like, only an hour.

After swimming, I just went to the CSO office. I thought my recommendation letter would be the the pidgeon hole but it wasnt. -__-" fine. My efforts in going up 4 floors by stairs, vanished. Anyway, I finished the Medical exam in school and got my x-ray. It looked weird. hahaha

After that, I bought the Cello's donuts for Dan's surprise. hahaha. I also bought candles and the lighter. -__-" great. So, I took a cab instead of riding the bus. I had alot to bring so, yeah. I arrived at G4 at passed 2 PM. May and Ekah were already there. So, I sat down with them and talked. Waited until Edz arrived. Then we waited for Dan some more. -__-" she arrived at about 3 passed. And we did the surprise there. hahaha. We are actually going to have a double celebration, just like ekah said. Dan's 18th birthday.. and the 500th day of SuJu. Everything was on me. Noraebang, food, drinks. hahaha.

We went to the Noraebang place after a while. As soon as we entered, there were korean boys. ahahaha. Cute korean boys. waaah. So, we had VIP 2. It was an okay room. Though we couldn't dance much. hahaha. So, we went crazy there. Being the adiks that we were. See may's blog for the songs that we got to sing. But particular songs were Han Saram Maneul by SuJu KRY and One by DBSG because we got to reach the high part from the song. Especially YehSungie's part. Whew. So high. hahaha.

Edline and I bought Kimbap because I was craving for it for the longest time already. So, we went to the Korean restaurant nearby. We entered and there was an Ahjusshi there. I ordered Tuna Kimbap, my favorite. So, we stood there waiting. Then Ahjusshi was kind enough to talk to us. He even joked with us. So nice. So, when the kimbap was done, I almost forgot to pay. -__-" I apologized to the ahjusshi. Then he told me, next time it's free. hahaha. Ahjusshi! I'm going to hold you for your word! We also bought ChilSung soda. It's the soda that SuJu drank during M6. haha. Obession for SuJu huh?

So, we returned and we finished up at the noraebang at around 5 PM. hahaha. I spent 500 pesos for the noraebang. 600 for the food. and now, I'm broke. Broke but happy. hahaha. So, we returned to Glorietta and headed for my house. This is really the total adik day. As soon as we arrived, we watched vids. Rokkuhgoh, Balloons and Irony. Hahaha. It was pure fun. Dan and ekah left at about 8 PM. May and Edz left at 11. -__-"

It was soo much fun. And I am so excited for 31st. The ultimate adik day, it has to be. I only wish that the whole adik clan will be there. I also miss gerty so so so much already.

Today, nothing much happened. Just classes. I missed persef again. -__-" aish. I hate waking up late. HeeChul didn't wake me up again. hahaha. I'll always use sungmin to wake me up. hahaha.

My head horribly hurts. aish. I'll just take a rest. JaNae.

Smile...The best mask.

2007-03-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

Mood: Tired
Listening to: Kissin U - Lyn

What Do I do?

I can't tell anyone. But it's a deep burden. I can't believe it. I'm crying. Cry. Again and again. The never ending tears.

I can just smile in front of them. They can never know. They can't know. I don't want anyone one to feel bad or hurt more. I don't want people to pity me.

I donot want to be pitied. Never. Not one single day or second should I be pitied. I am strong. God gave this burden to be because he know I can handle it. I know. He has plans for me.

But... How can I leave, if I don't want to go yet? How can I say goodbye... if I havent' said hello yet?

Boredom babblings

2007-03-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

Mood:Bored
Listening to: Choosey Lover (R. Yamaki's Groove) - ToHoShinKi

Wow, after a few decades, I'm listening to DBSG again.

Yes, I am extremely bored today. The moment I got woken up by SungMin's "Irona! Irona!" (Wake up! Wake up!) Aish. It's so cute. The way he says it. Aegyo King. Thanks to ate queen's soundbytes. ahahaha. I was supposed to use HeeChul's but I really find it quite weird. I only wish that DongHae had one. All he has is the random babbling he does in Sukira.Aish.

I'm in the school cybernook right now. I just finished voting and just asked for a certificate of good moral for SLIFE application. Gah. More work if ever, whoppee doo. *insert sarcasm here.*

On a lighter note, we'll be having another adik clan meet up. May(hope she can come), Ekah, Dan, Me and Edline. Gerty can't come cause she's in batangas. Dan's going to come over to ask permission from my parents if I could go toBatangas on the 31st. It's her debut. I sure hope I could go. I so want to see Gerty already. hahaha

anyway, I'm getting hungry. T_T I'll get going.

New Layout... yet again.

2007-03-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

Okay, so here I am.

hahaha. Since it's suju's 500th Day aniversary, here's a suju infested blog layout.

Greetings of peace to all.

I'm planning to change the URL of my blog so watch out for it. ^^

that's it.

hahaha.

<333.

Happy 500th Day Super Junior!

2007-03-20T19:06:00.000+08:00

Mood: Bored
Listening to: Hey Boy - Seo JiYoung

WOOH.

well, today was pretty much boring. Hahahaha. Nothing happened really.

Woke up at 11:30 AM and went online to update my ipod. ^^; So, as I got carried away with my online, I decided to make the layout for April already. I told myself, I'll make it EunHyuk. But then, I made all of them in the banner. Ahahaha.

Anyway, I got so carried away, I took a bath at 1:30 PM. Ahahaha. I thought I was going to be late for my Psychology class. But I wasn't hahaha. So, we had the boring class again. Ahahaha.

After class, Me and Camille ate mojos at the pebblewash near SPS and Yuchengco. She also decided to use the WiFi there. hahaha. Av also joined us after a few minutes.

Today was the second day of elections. I heard Lolo's sick. I hope he'll be fine. I haven't voted yet. But I'll surely do that tomorrow.

Today is Super Junior's 500th Day! Weee~~~! I am so so so happy really. NII is really the best. And the Mag scans yesterday were so HOT. Truly, I have known Super Junior for 500 days already as well. And I am happy that they are still together after 500 days. Still making people happy. Still making me happy. Still keeping me insanely sane.

Missed this smile

2007-03-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

I so missed this magnificent smile. I seriously missed him alot. After the rumors, I am so happy really. When I saw a pic fo him in May's Cyworld, I was super smiling. And when this came out, I can never be happier.

Look at that smile? So, handsome. So, yummy. hahaha. I'm sorry I can't help it. He's just so handsome and cute. DongHae I missed you. DongHae owns all of me. hahaha.

THANK GOODNESS FOR NII.

Weddings...

2007-03-19T09:16:00.000+08:00

Listening to: One Love - Spring Waltz OST
Mood: Sleepy

Wah! No net for 2 days. T_T But I am back now! weeee~!

Why no net? I went to Subic unexpectedly. Sigh. I went there unwillingly. hahaha. Why? Because it was my uncle's wedding. It's not that I don't want to see him get married, it's just, it's too strenuous to go there and just for a wedding.

Anyway, there's nothing that I can do can I? So, at subic, I was with my cousins. Talking, bonding, laughing. Just like always. The wedding was... too scripted. It's not that I wasn't moved or anything. It was just too scripted. There were alot of photographers and video people blocking the way. And the reception dinner was crappier. The food was tasteless. Blech.

All in all, I didn't pretty much like the wedding really. Though I am happy for my uncle. And for my new tita, tita Candy, welcome to the family.

Last saturday, I had my last nstp class. Whoppeee for me! So, we practically just ate in the classrom and after the summing up, I walked to the main building. Just felt like going home the long way. So, I saw Kai at sj walk. Then when I arrived at central plaza I saw Dianne and Gladys so I joined them. We were just talking first then decided to eat at Animo. So, at animo we bought mojos. Dianne ate pancit. hahaha. Then after a while, Gab came as well. I was with them the afternoon. We hanged out under Yuchengco as well.

Funny thing, I was txting Alliza because she's going over at my place. So, when I finished txting and placed my phone on the stair, Gab suddenly noticed my wallpaper which was DongHae. She then asked, "boyfriend?" hahaha. I smiled and nodded. She asked, "really? seryoso?" then I answered yeah. Then she freaked. Yes, DongHae is my boyfriend. But I started laughing, so did Gladys and I told her the truth. hahaha. I love it when people think that DongHae is my boyfriend. hahaha

Also, I was with my daughter, Alliza here at home. We watched M6 and a bunch of files and oh! 18 xs. 29. hahaha. Wah HD with EunHyuk... it's not anymore HD. hahaha.

So, last night, I was addicted to Spring Waltz again. ahahha JAEHA WHOEVER YOU ARE I LOVE YOU~~

New Layout!!

2007-03-16T19:51:00.000+08:00

yesh, here I go again.

Yeah, I replaced my blog layout already. I change my blog layout every second or third week of the month. hahahaha.

Yup yup.

this time, it's HyuNa.

HyuNa <333.

wondergirls <333.

<333.

Campaign Week; The Yuchengco Escapades

2007-03-16T18:59:00.000+08:00

Mood: Happy

Listening to: Happy - dunno the singer.

Today was the last day of Campaign.

As usual, I had classes and I was even late for Persef. psh. Anywhoo. It was fine. Just did some group work. Then after that, I went outside then migled with Cam, Gladys, Gab, Dianne, MeiLi, Kai, Av, Grace and the others. It was pure fun. Then, had Intglos class though it was cut short because of the Santugon Campaign. It was a surprise that they didn't do their sincerity speech.

After class, I, once again, hanged out with the girls. We were so noisy on the corridor. And I finally got my Tapat shirt and id. And I was actually excited. Almost all of us were wearing the Tapat shirt today it was pure love.

Cam decided to ditch Kaspil class. So, Av, Cam, Kate and Me went somewhere. Well, before that, we saw MaeLi and Kai. then Lolo came. We were so kilig because they took a pic together. waaah they're so cute really.

After that we went to the gazeebos between SJ Walk and Miguel then we went to Amphi to go to Conserve but we ended up on the pebble wash near SPS. hahaha. Then we saw Seth. So, Seth joined us and we just talked and talked.

We actually decided to go to the Museum. Hahaha. When we went up the Yuchengco, we took photos. We had a photoshoot up there. hahaha

1st pic: Si Cam model material! wooh!

2nd pic: Donna and Seth's turn!

3rd pic: I'm so fat -__-" For a just and free society...

4th pic: I VOTE STRAIGHT!

5th pic: Ghetto look! hahaha

Yeah, that was our pictorial session, I still have some on my phone. The ones that are in the Museum. rofl. So, afterwards, I went to class. I was supposed to introduce Av and Cam to Enchong but class already started. awww. So, after Kaspil and Intsoci, I went down Yuchengo and I was supposed to go the clinic but I saw MaeLi and Yuri on the pebble wash near SPS where we sat earlier. I sat there with them. Laughing, kwento kwento. hahaha. Super fun really.

We even saw Hugh and Carry. I actually shouted Mugh Horris. Once again, he didn't get it. -__-" psh. I also saw Ate Tin! wooh! hahaha. We were talking about SiWon boy. Anyway, didn't get a chance to see him. Sad Sad.

Well, I wore green today but I still wore my Tapat shirt. So much for a statement of neutrality. But it was worth the leave. I am loving Tapat even better.

<333.

Campaign Week; Embarrasing Moments

2007-03-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

Mood: Glad. :)
Listening to: All My Life - KC and Jojo

Oh, super romantic song huh? hahaha.

Today, whew. It's the ultimate bloopers day. So, I'm going to skip the morning part because something happened that I don't want to talk about. I didn't think that it could happen to me but it did. I didn't become scared, what I was scared about was, loosing the people I loved without even saying something to them. It brought me chills and I couldn't stop crying. I was scared.

ANYWAY, Okay, so, 12:30, after PE class, I went to the 10th floor for RTRs and PTPCs. I wasn't expecting anyone to be there but my blockmate, Jr, was there so, thank goodness for me. So, we just sat there and after a few minutes the candidates came and we ate lunch, well, they did, I went to SCO for the project proposal.

Then, I retuned to andrew then, Toby Benjamin was there. So, we talked and the others came again. While waiting for someone, gladys came out. We cracked a joke about Hugh but no one laughed! As quoted again from Camille, The Shame. Super Shame as in. And also we cracked the Pontis Glonny joke, but no one laughed except the two of us! Argh.

Another shame worthy event, was the flying slippers of Gladys and Donna. hahaha. It was me at first, until Gladys repeated it again. ahahha After the "flying slippers" was the "Loss of a Slipper." hahahaha! Yes, it's the lose-the-slipper day today. Cam took one of Gladys' slipper and took it inside our class, Dianne even helped in taking it further in the classroom. I was laughing so hard because Gladys even told the teacher about it and begged him to retrieve it for her. It was so hilarious. The professor even told Gladys that she could share Gab's slipper.

Wah~! The shame. If LaSalle, CLA batch 106 had a hall of shame, Gladys, Cam, Addie and I would be the top notchers.

Okay, enough of my nonchalant babblings. I am so tired already. Adios!

Campaign Week; Battle of the Brightest

2007-03-14T20:00:00.000+08:00

Mood: Pissed off
Listening to: fuck it female version

Why battle of the brightest? Everyone was wearing Yellow and Orange.

So, I arrived in school at 11 AM. it was early for class so I did the tentative reservation for Liga Historia's Battle for Manila Exhibit. So, I went to the Mezzanine in LS building and there.

As soon as I finished. I went to Andrew building and went to class. I was actually almost late because... I dunno the reason hahaha. Anyway, I attended all my classes. Whoopee.

U-Break was... Chaotic. For them. I didn't join in because, I dunno. I didn't feel like it. Instead, I had lunch with mommy Che.

I am so fucking pissed really. Me and mommy che were walking along LS and then someone suddenly bumps on me. Knowing people in LaSalle, they'd apologize. Fuck this guy! He didn't even look back! And Mommy Che pointed out to him. MY FUCKING GOD IT WAS HIM. I was so freakin' pissed and kept on shouting at him.

SHIT. I am really just so pissed off. how dare he do that to me? aish. I really felt my blood pressure going up seriously.

Sigh, still don't know much about the DongHae issue. Barely got sleep. I hate life.

too much pain

2007-03-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

Mood: Devastated
Listening to: Endless Moment - Super Junior

this is seriously too much pain and blogging about it will be so much more.

Today, I just confined something. Suddenly, I felt so sad. like someone died. someone that I uberly love. Someone that completes me. I know it sounds stupid because it's just because of my fangirling but it's deeper than that. This "stupid" fangirling actually one of the thing that changed me as a person.

DongHae's leaving the group. DongHae. The guy on my banner. The guy that is the wallpaper of my mobile phone. The guy that has the most pictures in my wallet. The guy that I so love deeply more than anyone else. The guy that changed me as a person.

I can't accept this fact that he's going to leave super junior and join a new one. Yes he is going to be the lead singer, I should be happy, but I just can't. I can't picture super junior without DongHae.

Seriously, I feel my heart is going to fall out of it's place. DongHae is one of the reasons why I have the greatest friends in the world right now. he's one of the reasons why I work hard. He's one of those reasons that I'm proud to be single. He's one of the main reasons why I love Super Junior.

I couldn't even think well right now. I can't just accept this fact that DongHae's leaving suju. It's a big devastation to all suju fans especially DongHae lovers such as I am.

Why would Lee Soo Man do such a thing? Why does he always think of his sake and his money rather than solidifying suju? There are ALOT of trainees out there, why would he pick out DongHae from his group already?

I know, I'm in no position to say that, but what am I to do? I love super junior too much. My world goes around them. I changed because of them. I became a better person because of them. No other group can compare with my love for super junior. No ther boyband had had this effect on me before.

People might not understand this feeling, I understand. I pardon to those people who would read this pointless babbling of mine. I just gave to let out this feeling in my heart.

For me, DongHae is the perfect guy. he's good at singing, a great dancer, a good actor (M6 baby! <3), a really funny guy. And he does it best when he's with SuJu. But taking him out of it, is way too much.

I'm just going to stop here. I just want to rest.

heart-stopping...

2007-03-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

Extracted from conversation between FM DJ, heechul and sungmin on 07/03/2007

DJ: Will SJ also be involved in activities overseas?

Heechul: Of course, we have plans already.

DJ: What about donghae? Will he be upset that he is left out?

Heechul: I will always protect donghae! Like he’s my own brother!

DJ: Some audience ask, what about those members who are left out by SJ T’s activities?

Heechul: They are not being left out!

Sungmin: These are all misunderstandings…

Heechul : Kibum and siwon had always been concentrating on acting, hankyung is mainly involved in activities in China… Who else?

Sungmin: And K.R.Y

Heechul: Like what they have said, preparing for the new album… As for donghae, he is preparing for his new group’s productions. We all know that donghae has a good voice, he will be the main vocal. We are not sure of the actual plans yet, but there will surely be donghae’s activity plans.

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My heart is aching.

at first... I couldn't believe it.

I refused to do so.

my heart just can't take it.

why?

lee soo man why????

fuck.

I am so devastated right now.

I'm shaking.

I'm crying.

I feel so... empty.

Campaign Week; Tuesdays with Camille, Gladys and Ponny a.k.a. The Red Day

2007-03-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

Mood: Happy~!
Listening to: bad boy - wondergirls

Since today is the only red day, tuesday, well, I decided to write it up as red day. Another factor is, almost everyone was in red.

Today was a super fun day. I woke up at 9:30 and just waltzed around the house because of boredom and I was waiting for Hugh's txt on what time I was supposed to be in school. So, at 10:30, I was sitting at our dining table, eating my so-called lunch. Then suddenly, Hugh txts me and said, I can be there at 11 AM. Being myself, I super hate being late. That's the last thing that you could expect me to do. So, I rushed eating, took a bath, wore my clothes, brushed my teeth and went off to school.

I arrived in school exactly 11 AM. I even bumped in with Camille, Gladys, Gab, Av, Camille and the others. They were off to lunch and I was off to andrew. So, I stayed in the cybernook until 12:30. I really got pissed off and txted Hugh and he miss called me. It was the sign that I should go to the 10th already, and I did. Great. When I arrived, they weren't doing anything. So I kept on teasing him and blaming him and stuff.

Seriously, I felt so weird shouting "Vote Straight" Ahahaha. Today, I was also with Camille and Gladys Ponny. Ahahha. Yesh, Gladys and Ponny is just one person. We had so much fun this day. We joined RTRs and kept on laughing because we found Hugh really funny. I dunno why, but he just is. The two even showed them their "RTR" kuno. hahaha. It's soo funny. Even Hugh kept on laughing.

On the more serious side, Well, it was the first time that I got to hear their speech and I was sorta impressed really. Their RTR stand is so clear and they really have this strong output with the students. I kept on telling Hugh that he was coming out too strong and he did soften up a bit. That's good.

I really think I made a good descision when I jumped to Tapat. I think it isn't true what they say, that Tapat is all politics and no fun. Well, you can incurr the fun in politics right?

Campaign Week; Day 1

2007-03-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

Mood: Happy and Sad (is it even possible?}
Listening to: Someday - Nina

Okay, this first day wasn't really what I thought it would be.

Today wasn't like the FE's during first term. No running around, no early call times, no RTRs.

Well, first of all, I arrived in school at about 11:50. I thought I was running late for my first class already and it turned out that my prof was absent. Great. Just great. So I just waltzed around the school figuring out what to do.

I finally decided on going to the 10th. And I saw camille there. Then next came Addie, Gladys best friend. And then, there goes Gladys. And you know what happens when we get together. Chaos + Noise = Fun for Gladys, Cam and Me. Add up to the equation Addie. Oh my god. As quoted from Cam, The Shame. hahaha I accompanied Gladys to charge her ipod in EGI. on the way down we talked and talked and talked. hahaha. So, after that we went back and I went to the main campus.

I just passed the A-form at SCO and I tried to do the reservations but Ate Nida wasn't there and I was already running out of time. So after that, I went to Miguel naturally. We had kaspil class. I couldn't answer his exam! I am so screwed. Sigh.

Anyway.

Sigh, I dunno. Seriously, these few days, I've been making descisions I didn't even think about. I made actions without even thinking. I've been sad because of something I wanted to know. I'm sad because of a person that I love will have to leave my side. I'm being pressured badly by my dad. to tell the truth, I feel so bad.

On the surface, I'm laughing, having fun. But when you dig deeper, it's not only laughter that you would see. I'm really mourning inside. When I want to cry, I just suppress ever tear behind my eyes. I feel so aweful. I pity myself that I couldn't shed a tear. Because I choose not to.

I choose to keep it all to myself. I choose not to show anything to anyone. I choose not to talk but rather, just laugh. Smile. Yes, smile. Smile all the pain in my heart.

Why do I choose to smile, because I don't want my friend to worry about me. I know they don't like it when I cry and I try not to.

I feel so sad, Ate Ana's leaving on Saturday. One of my most treasured people will go to a foreign country now. Now I know how sad and hard it is. There's going to be that hole in your heart until that person returns. But what can I do? I can't stop her from achieving her dreams. I could only wish her the best of luck. Ate Ana, if you're reading this, thank you so much for all the support. Thank you for the comfort, love and friendship that you gave me. Always go online there okay? and don't forget to kidnap DongHae for me. I <333 you so much.

chain blogpost

2007-03-11T11:24:00.000+08:00

it is my first time as well to do something like this. hahaha

RULES:"Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!"

1. I love math
2. I'm an animal lover.
3. I cry when reading fics.
4. I am extremely moody.
5. I can't sleep without a light on.
6. I am a member of tapat. (recently)
7. I'm a bit boyish.
8. I'm resposible when I want to. (I choose what I want to do)
9. I base my fashion with my fangirling.
10. I listen to songs that I barely understand (Kpop, Cpop and Jpop! <333)

tagged: ekah, dan, ate nadz, alliza, miks, fayee

Addicting days...

2007-03-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

hahaha. Okay I'm happy today but not fully happy.

Happy because I think I made the right choice. I dunno why but I am quite excited and nervous for Monday. I dunno. Anyways, moving on.

Today was really out of this world for me. Hahahaha. Just spending less than an hour with Camille, Gladys and Grace will drive me crazy for sure. It did. Hahahaha. This morning was really fun. I sat in Cam's kaspil2 class again. And he's was there again.

I want to rant about him. GOD HE IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE. sorry for the language I'm just terribly pissed off really. HOW THE HELL CAN HE DO THAT TO MY FRIEND!? I've been fishing for it all along and I was right. Damn him.

Enough of him. I don't want to get pissed off further.

I'll just post the pictures from yesterday! yey~

me and ekah-------------------me and dan-----------------starbucks girls

hahaha that's all for now...

I'll post more next time...

Depression sucks

2007-03-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

today was a really amazing day though it's ending badly.

I was already preparing my clothes last night for today 'cause I told Ekah I'd be wearing the HeeChul/EunHyuk inspired clothes. It was totally a last-minute decision that I would wear yhe skinny jeans and high heels. It's actually Wondergirls inspired. Great.

I was with Ekah and Dan this afternoon. At first, Ekah went shopping with me. Well, I just bought a really cute white long sleeves top for the HyunAh-inspired clothing. So, after we bought it, we went window shopping in places and stuff. Then we ate at World Chicken XD. After a while, Dan arrived and we started to talk and talk. Afterwards we went to Starbucks and blah.

Sorry, not in the mood to blabb. We took pictures too. I'll post them up tomorrow, I dunno.

Why do I feel depressed then? It concerns someone that I love dearly. Someone that is the reason I have my friends with me. Well, it's not just one, but 13. But he's the real important one for me.

It's hard to accept it. It's hard to hear him get pulled out and be in a new one. I won't be able to take it. I can't accept the fact that he might leave them. I don't want that to happen. I never want that to happen. Who would?

It's a rumor, I know. But, the question is what if? What if it's true? Then it would be really hard.

All I can do is wait. watch. pray.

It's really hard. I dunno what I'll do if it happens. Will this mean, goodbye already?

Wondergirls Addiction

2007-03-07T19:54:00.001+08:00

Listening to: Irony - Wondergirls
Mood: Hyperly-addicted (is there such a mood?)

Okay so my not-so-fangirl-blog is going to be evaded today.

I'm going to blabb outside the borders here.

WONDERGIRLS ARE LOVE!

yesh I am getting addicted to wondergirls here. OMG. I cannot believe myself here. I have never been so enthusiastic about girl groups apart from 7F which was sorta ages ago.

Thank miss Maylene Madlangbayan for it. psh. that girl. She just slept over here and we started watching the day's perf of SuJu T in beztiz then we suddenly shifted to Wonder Girls's stage. Great. We also watched some mainstream stuff on YouTube.

HyunAh is love. HyunAh reflects me too much. We both have short hair, we both are EXTREMELY NOISY. We both have big trips on life and the such. We both have alot of controversies on our hands. (XD) hahaha.

Okay, enough with Wonder girls.

These first two days of the week are so nice. I feel so fulfilled with my life. Why? I'm starting to be more responsible. I'm starting to put my studies first before I do something else. (I finished my intglos homework already) see? I'm getting more and more fulfilled with my life. This is really rare with me huh? I know. I feel sorta weird myself. But I'm also happy. I'm happy I passed all the required homework in psychology this afternoon. I'm happy I'm reciting in class more. I have this upliftment to do better again. Funny what things and moodswings can do to you huh?

Okay so today was the best day. I had a facial and went shopping with one of my crushes. He's an Eng student at my school as well. He's the son of my mom's friend so we're sorta acquaintances too. We were talking about school, persef, englres and stuff. I dunno but I feel good talking to him. Waaaahh~~!!

Moving on. My mom bought me new shoes for formal attires and for my uncle's wedding this april. Also, I forced her to buy me skinny jeans! oh yeah! I'm so happy. I finally got to go shopping again. And when I left, she bought me a couple of tops too~ I love my mom.

Oh! Meetings week this week. Campaign week the next and Voting week on next next week! WOOT! GE's here we come!

Me?? A Poet?? hahaha

2007-03-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

so, yeah i won't blab today. *waaah a miracle* I'm just going to post a poem I did today. It's dedicated to my special angels. May, Ekah, Dan, Gerty, Faye, Cherilyn and Camille. So, here it is. I hope you guys like it.

My friend

Looking back through the years,
laughter, pain, joy and tears.
events we can never forget,
there are roads to be traveled yet.

I see you for who you are,
beyond the bruises, scrapes and scars.
to a heart loyal, strong and true,
I will always stand by you.

Everytime I fall or stumble,
encouragement is what you mumble.
words so soft, powerful and lasting,
love and guidance, without asking.

though we have our imperfection,
they became our strong connector.
understanding without words,
sharing secrets never heard.

every experience, a lesson learned,
the road has many twists and turns.
but wherever the path may be,
I hope you'll be there beside me.

you have a place in my heart,
no matter how far we drift apart.
you always have, you always will,
a space that only you can fill.

my friend, a solid rock in life,
to see me through whatever strife.
I may encounter along the way,
advice and wisdom you will always say.

Weekend Sleepovers

2007-03-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

This weekend was so awesome!

Hahahaha!

As I stated on my friday entry, may was here right. well, saturday, she came here again. ahahaha. rofl. She returned some of my dvds. So, we watched a few of them, we also watched a movie and Love Letter. After a while, it started to rain, hard. So, she sleptover. XD ahahaah. We stayed up and watched files until 2 AM.

Can you imagine us both in one bed? ahahaha. Yes we did fit in one bed. Amazing. lol. It was so fun!

And today when we woke up, hahaha, she immediately opened my ipod and played Suju T songs. lol.

We watched the recent Rokkuhgoh perf and Wondergirls. I am getting addicted to wondergirls now. hahaha.

The 3 days were really fun. I don't want to get into much details because we were purely addicted to super junior and wondergirls really. hahaha

I'll elaborate this more, soon. See you guys!

hello march!

2007-03-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

wow another month started.

haha.

Ddn't get to blog yesterday. I was scolded by my mom and dad so I was just upstairs. I watched the movies that I bought they were nice.

So, this march I had my annual physical exam for school. Then, I had to take my weight. When I stepped on the weighing scale, I was *** pounds! I'm not gonna publicise my weight. -__-" anyway, the point is, I suddenly got conscious. I dunno why. I suddenly had the impulse to lose weight.

So, last night I made a diet/exercise/daily schedule. I tried it out today it went pretty well. So I think I might be able to follow the schedule I made it depends really.

Sigh, May just left an hour ago. hahaha. We were supposed to go somewhere but it got canceled. Anyway, the usual routine that adik clan does in my house, watch vids and dvds.

I bought the continuation of the CSI Las vegas season 7. I'm gonna watch it at 10:30. lolx. Yes, it's the schedule. hahaha.

I think that's about it. Nothing so interesting these past few days. I only wish that March would be quiet.

LaSallian Recollection

2007-02-28T19:06:00.000+08:00

Today, I had my Lasare1 or LaSallian Recollection. It is done for one whole day and it is exclusively for Freshman students at De La Salle University. At first I thought, oh my, this is going to be boring. Because one of my friends, namely Camille, told me I might as well bring a blanket and a pillow. On the other hand, my other friend, Cherilyn told me it was worth attending to. I'll only share about the parts that I could remember okay?

S, I woke up at 6:30 AM. At first I was too bored to get up because I was so sleepy. So, I got myself up and did my morning rounds. I arrived in school at 7:21 so I was just on time. As I got in, some of my blockmates were already there. First thing that came into mind. Here we are again, with my blockmates.

We chatted for a while and then, the first session started. As soon as we got settled in the prayer room, everyone was so noisy. It was natural. Since high school recollections, everyone is noisy. So, he started writing on the blackboard. It was weird, he instructed us to get OUT of the room! I was actually confused I thought we did something wrong. But it was the first activity. at first it was weird ubntil he explained to us the significance. First reflection: be careful and sensitive with our actions towards rules and towards people.

Then he made us do reflection again and stuff. Then we had a break. So we ate and chatted then after a while we returned to the prayer room. This time, we had a calm talk. He talked about his trials in life. He never asked us to do a reflection but I had one. Never take things for granted, and, everything happens for a reason. He gave us two questions to answer. and I'd like to answer them here because he told us to answer it for ourselves.

When was God really present in your life? Honestly, I know, not think, that He is always present in my life. Sometimes, I know that I fail to notice that. I fail to acknowledge His presence with me. And I know it's wrong. Before, I'd always take time to pray and somehow, talk to Him. But now, I'm not doing that anymore. I know I can't complain that I'm busy and whatnot. I really felt sorta guilty.

Second question, When was the last time I chose to be present to this God? Now this, this is what really hit me. I dunno but, He knows that I am present but, do I want him to feel my presence? It's like breathing. It comes so naturally already that we fail to notice it.

Next activity, we were asked to listen to a song. I forgot the title, I think it's, I'll love you more than you'll ever know? haha. I really don't know. It's an old song. Our facilitator told us to think about the song. That God was the one singing it to us. It was a really nice song, love and trust. He asked us to make a reflection about it. The only thing I could share here is, the word thank you. Everything is personal to me.

On the next game, I wan't included because I was sick but it was an interesting game. I wouldn't be able to explain it because it's very complicated. But it was quite interesting. It's mainly about survival and saving other people. It showed us how selfish can people be. That people would only care about saving themselves first. And that people are always in a hurry. It opened up my eyes alot.

One of the last things I could share, was the spiritual gifts dicovery test. It was quite interesting. He made us answer these questions and summed them up the he gave us the meaning of the letters next to the total of each rows. I have 3 highest things. Teacher, Giver and Administrator.

Teacher. Tends to correct mistakes. Tends to sound a know-it-all. You'll love talking to them. Debater. Open Minded. Perfectionist. In a way. it was true. Sometimes, I hate it when I have mistakes with things. I am a very talkative person as well. I'm very open minded in the sense that, I accept the thoughts and other pespectives of people. Sometimes, I'm quite a perfectionist as well.

Giver. Passionate. Generous. Pampering significant others. Yeah, I'm also like this. Passionate and generous. I love pampering my friends. I always spoil them. I am very generous with people that I like it better to give than receiving.

and last, Administrator. Success-oriented. Natural leader. Organizer or mobilizes people for a certain task. I think that the last one is the only thing applicable to me. I'm not actually leader material. I like better when I'm the follower. I just prefer people telling me what to do, rather me telling people what to do.

That's about it. The day ended with a mass. After the mass, we left already. I would have to agree with Cherilyn. The Lasare was worth attending. It opened up alot of thoughts to me. I have realized so many things that I have took for granted. So, that was basically it.

Everything was just fine and dainty. what the? dainty? hahaha. I feel so tired so I'm gonna rest for a while. Till' next time.

brighter days

2007-02-27T11:58:00.000+08:00

Mood: Sleepy
Listening to: Move your body - Nina Sky

Okay, so yesterday, I didn't blog. Nothing to blab about anyway. I WAS supposed to blab but I've ALOT on my hands last night.

So, Last night I was freakin' dizzy. I was talking to at least 7 people all at the same time. The most important one was the Marquez family in Australia. I was talking to my cousin and auntie. Well, we were just planning about their vacation here on April which is top secret. And, another thing which cocerns my health but I will not discuss in right now because I'm wishing for it not to happen and I'm waiting for a confirmation before I say it.

I'm happy. I really am. Now, I've accepted that fact. As people would say, no use crying over spilled milk. Right? I've no reason to cry again because I've accepted this fact. Nothing's going to be the same anymore. I won't hope anymore because it will never happen. I don't want to make up with that person anymore. If she's that mad at me, no more. Call me cold-hearted, but I've had it. I don't want to cry anymore. I've had my share of tears to shed. and, I also realized as Cherilyn said, my crying won't do me any good. See mommy che!? I listen to you. :p

I feel happier than ever. It felt nice that this problem has been lifted of me. Hopefully, this is the final entry I'll have about this topic. I hope this wouldn't happen again. I've learned my lesson. I hope that after this, life can be smoother. Now I know, life's not about rainbows and butterflies. It's about darkness and making a light that can lead your way.

February is almost ending, and after reading my month's entries, It feels as if I went on a roller coaster ride. Ups and Downs. It would never change. Life would always be like this.

After these problems, I felt that I am stronger. I've grown and learned alot from this experience. Now I understand, God gave me this trial because he knew I can be stronger than I was.

Alot of things happened when I stepped in college. There were good experiences and bad ones as well. 2 months left and I'm going to be a sophomore. I know, I'll experience even more pains than this one. 16 years old. Froshie at De La Salle University. Who would believe someone could actually go through this?

My bond with my friends became stronger. I'm finally having a look on who my real friends are. And I'm thankful for them. I'm thankful that they're here to guide me. I'm thankful that they not only share laughs with me, but also the tears. I feel that I am not worthy to be their friend. But I am glad, I could make them happy as they'd do the same to me.

talk about drama in the morning huh? ahaha. I will see a brighter side from now on. I know for myself, I've matured alot. I've learned to be more sensitive, not only to myself, but also the people around me. I've learned to be patient and to look at two sides before crossing the street(it is metaphorical). I've learned to be strong, unlike my high school days when I'd always be crying. I've learned to fight for myself. I've changed.

and I love it!

New Layout

2007-02-25T15:41:00.000+08:00

mood: Happy
Listening to: Caught up - Usher

new layout for the month of march!

I know, it's a bit too early. actually, it is too early. ahaha. I just loved the layout is all. I changed the banner because I didn't like the brush work. So, I made one. DongHae! weee~!

I WATCHED SUJU T ON MAINSTREAM BUT IT SUCKED. yesh. I'm bitter because of that. But, nevertheless, I saw suju T performing!~ weeee~! I love it. they are so adorable. I missed HeeChul greatly, but not as much as I miss DongHae, seriously.

Rokkugguh was pure joy <333. It made me happy as well. ^^;

I'm beginning to be my old self again.

getting through it...

2007-02-25T11:06:00.000+08:00

mood: happy
listening to: I'm not missing you - Stacie Orrico

I'll post here, what I posted in SJ Philippines thread, Suju Dream Thread.

one of the most awesome dreams I've had of them.. was last night.

I know I feel so bad these past few days, and with this dream, I'm really happy.

I was walking along in dlsu, with a duffel bag. On my own to the sports complex. I went in the elevator and got off at 9th floor. I was wearing jogging pants and a racer back shirt. As soon as I entered one of the rooms, where we'd usually hold our dance classes, there were alot of people in. Some were dancing and the majority were watching. As soon as the music stopped, I heard my name called so I rushed in and dropped my bag in the corner. I was so nervous, I just stood there while everyone's eyes were on me. Suddenly, a hand held my shoulder, I looked back, it was DongHae. He smiled at me and said, "We can get through it together". I smiled at him as he stood next to me. When the music started playing, eunhyuk appeared on my other side. I was happy. Dancing with the two of them... then... then...

I woke up.. -___-"

but nonetheless, I love that dream. It had a significance in my life, especially now.

So, I wanna explain further that significance I'm taking about. I'm really hppy to have this dream. Especially that line, we can get through it together. I've been having alot of difficulties these past few days and I'm glad to lessen the burden now.

I think that, my dream is telling me that, I can get through anything as long as I have my friends with me. I understand why only DongHae and EunHyuk were the only ones there. It goes to show that, even if I have few friends, I can get through anything as long as I have them. That, quality is more than quantity. Those LSDC people, their significance are my trials and problems in life. They are all around me, staring at me, watching me carefully. And DongHae and HyukJae are there, to defend me. To catch me when I fall.

Last night, as Ekah said on her blog, the truth is already revealed. And it hurts. It damn well hurts. I thought, I'll be happy knowing the truth, but instead it hurted me more. I cried endlessly again last night and I'm happy I had let it all out.

I'm not mad at her, still. I'm not going to do anything and get even with her. I'm just going to keep quiet and continue with my life. You might call me a martyr or something but, I just don't want to cause anymore pain to other people. I'd rather be the one hurt that other people getting hurt. I know it's wrong, but what am I to do? it already happened. I can't turn back time now. All is done.

I don't think I can forgive or forget. To those people who know me, they'd understand. I'll just bury it in a treasure chest on my heart where all my pain lies. It's like, I have pandora's box in my heart. Where all the evil and madness stays. and when I get curious, I'd open it and it all comes out. It poisons my body. I know I cannot do this, but this is how I am.

I wanna say thank you once again. I can't do it personally again because, I'm going to cry.

I just wanna say thanks to those people who believe in me. To those people who stood by my side and told me the truth. To those people who told me, I can get through it and everything would be alright. to those who told me that I'm strong and that I am worth more than that person. To Mommy Kai, Ekah, Cherilyn, Ate Tin, Camille and to everyone who made me strong. THANK YOU.

I'm happier than ever. I'll get through this.

Be strong...

2007-02-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

Mood: Guilty and tired
Listening to: Too Little, too late - JoJo

Ever since that happened. The incident, I dunno. I'm hesitant about... everything. Yesterday, I seriously felt so loved. I felt that feeling once again. That feeling that someone actually cares for you. I saw that with my friends. With Ekah, Mommy Kai, Camille, my real friends.

I thought about, leaving SjPhils, the forum world, my world. I thought that, it would be easier that way. Many times that I have thought of doing this, but I couldn't. I wouldn't dare do it. Escaping is not the key to problems. I have to face them. I feel so tired already, like, I'm slowly deteriorating.

I suddenly remembered one of thise quotes we have from International Studies.. "We must learn from history because it will keep on repeating until we learn.." If that's so, why is this happening to me again?

Yesterday, I was with Ekah in G4. I was smiling. Smiles. My favorite mask. I'd just crack up jokes and smile to everyone, but what they don't know, I'm dying. It's too much pain for me. But, I was getting by. I can get through this right? I got through it before, I can get through it again... right? I have to be strong. I must be strong.

My heart is getting worse. I'm not supposed to be stressed or get mad or be emotionally unstable. It's the worst thing that could happen to me right now. But it is. It's wrong to supress it all inside, but what do I do? What can I do?

Last night, I couldn't be any happier. My friends made me so happy. Maybe, if it wasn't for them, I won't be here anymore. I owe alot to those people who keep me sane enough to continue living my complicated and darn life. I won't be having single replies like a forum, I just want to tell everyone, Thank You. Thank you for teaching me alot of lessons. Thank you for showing me that my life is still worth living after all these. I love each and eveyone of you.

to May: Kambal, *hugs* I understand you dear. I know na nahihirapan ka. I just want to say, please don't be guilty of something you did not do. I am not pointing to anyone. I am merely pissed off by everything that is happening. Dear, you do know that we are always here right? and you can tell us your problems right? that's why we have each other, so we can help one another. May, seriously, we love you and you know that right? almost 2 years of friendship, I think I can pretty much say that I know you already. Just, take all the time you need okay? We're just here. I'm here.. We can get through this.

I can't say anything anymore. I dunno. I feel tired. School, Academics, Organizations, Friends and now... this. I can't take it anymore.

Oh, just a happy thought, Ekah, my boyfriend, gave me SungMinnie! a cute small stuffed bear. It's color was blondish brown so I thought, SungMin!!! plus it's small so it's SungMin. XD added to my collection!

another happy thought, Cam gave me moffins this morning. YUP. MOFFINS. with an O. hahaha. It was okay, there were some missing ingredients but it ws fine unlike the one last week. XD

Last edit. hahaha. Vina, my classmate in Persef and NSTP is a shinhwa fan. XD She recognized the dong bang shin gi pin that I had on my bag. It's.. cool. I thought that me, che and lola tin were the only fangirls in dlsu.

Tiring life

2007-02-23T13:19:00.000+08:00

Mood: Pissed and tired
Listening to: Miahn Han Maeum - Wondergirls

Yesterday, was one of those moments when I want to just...grr... I dunno.

So, Morning, the usual classes and stuff. Then during the break I went online posted a few stuff and there. Went to last class and blah went off home.

As soon as I got home, of course, I went online. And I was shocked to find, SJ Philippines... GONE! oh my god. We all thought that there was an error with proboards, but it was confirmed, the board was deleted. Fuck that person. She even used MAY'S account! Oh my, the nerve! Then I also heard that, she screenshot one of my posts that said, Angels are different from Bangers. She even posted it in DongBang World and TVfXQ World. Oh my, this is just, too much controversy. I wouldn't dare leave the computer, my nurse was shouting at me already. It's so unreal. I just cried. I cried because of the frustration, hurt and this was already tiring.

My life is going in circles, controversy here and there. I couldn't study for my midterms. I was so damn depressed. I asked Ekah to call me and she did. I kept on crying to her. I couldn't take the pain anymore. Whoever did it, she went too far. It was damn too much. I don't even understand why this happened. Its... unreal. I felt like everything was my fault.

I should have left when I had the chance. I should have gone to Australia already when my parents wanted me to. I should have listened to them. Then, everything would be alright. Nothing would be wrong. Everything's my fault. I feel so sorry to everyone. I'm sorry to the jc-ers. I'm sorry to the angels and bangers if they were offended to my statement. I'm sorry to everyone that got affected.

I'm so tired already, I shouldn't be even this way. I can't act like this right now, but what can I do? I wish that I could perish from the earth. I just want to die so that everyone would be happy that way right? When I die, everyone would even hold a party because I did die. I don't want to experience this pain anymore. I'm already experiencing pain from all the medications, and still, I'm experiencing this pain in my heart.

Mianhe everyone. I don't know what to do to compensate for my faults. I feel like I'm such a bad person. I am a bad person. I'm sorry to bring you all so much trouble.

Crappy Days

2007-02-22T13:08:00.000+08:00

Okay, so i know I haven't been blogging for the past few days... why? because there's nothing to blog about.

Well, the days we're crappy. I dunno. There was really nothing going wrong on anything. Nothing was going right either. =___="

Wednesday, I had my midterms in Global Studies. This is stupid. I stayed up until 3 in the morning to study because I thought it would be so hard, then.... it was true or false and multiple choice. grrr. Hurrah for me. *sarcasm* Well, party, I stayed up because of Snowflower, the korean drama which starred Go Ara and Kim KiBum. *I bought it for KiBum* hahaa. Okay, I liked kibum in the series. He was so cute and I loved his role. The crazy thing was, I was giggling whenever I saw him O__O; hahaha.

So, today, I just finished swimming class. I didn't know that we had our midterms really. So, she asked us to do one lap lengthwise, which was 50 meters or 3 laps crosswise, which.. er... I dunno.. I chose, 1 lap lengthwise of course. What was the training during the summer for? So, I did it with 59 seconds. I'm happy like this ^_______^;

I just realized something a while ago in the pool. Because everytime that I would go lapping, I would always think about him. He and his goofy smiling filling my mind. Then today, he didn't. I don't think about him much anymore and I'm happy about it. Maybe after the thing last monday, I'm finally free. (I hope so!)

Well, this week is also the intramurals week in Ann Arbor. I'm so sad because I didn't get to go since it's midterm week. T_T. Yeah I'm such a dork. grrr. I'm also freezing cold here in the cybernook right now. rawr.

I miss DongHae. T__T

Ordinarily Evil Monday

2007-02-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

Okay, so today, I got pissed off so early in the morning.

When I arrived in school, I was late. As usual, in Mr. Marasigan's class. Okay, so when I arrived they were discusing and laughing so I thought, I'm missing the review already. After a while, they all stood up and were saying goodbye to sir already. My reaction... O__o; My mind was like, what the eff is wrong?... Okay so we had a free cut! I should have gone to my old school to watch the cheering competition instead.

Okay, so I ended up going to the main library instead.I stayed there, reading my sociology book for our group quiz. Then I received an SMS from Cam asking me on how was our Psychology paper. So, I told her I'm going to the 10th instead. So, when I arrived there, I talked to Camille and Gracey then we saw Hugh going out of the classroom so I talked to him about *ehem* haha. And he admitted that his crush is *ehem* (Cam I love you! XD)

One of the stupid things I did? I sat in their class. Fudge. I didn't know why I did that, but the whole time, I didnt' even look at him. The funny thing was, I was talking to Charlton in the hallway and he was walking around. Eh, I was laughing and when he passed by, I saw him smiling at me but I didn't mind him and continued talking with Charlton. Fudge him. Anyway, so yeah, I sat in their Kaspil1 class with Sir. Santiago which was okay. He was a good professor afterall and he was extremely nice. Cam and I kept on giggling and "txting" each other over on her phone. Talking about her "relationship" with Hugh that was soo grade school. I even helped Cam's groupmates with their work. It was fun really. So, when class ended, I kept telling Cam that we needed to go because I was getting suffocated. Which was clearly an insult to him.

When we walked out, I insisted that Cam sat in our class in Kaspil2. (right back at ya dear!) haha. So, yeah, I talked to Hugh once again outside the class since we both have the same professor. Cam suddenly disappeared. Okay. That was bizzare. So, I txted her to come up as soon as Hugh and I finished talking. She sat in my class because of Enchong Dee. hahaha.

After that, well, I had Sociology class. We had our group quiz which involved a movie entitled, The Red Violin. Seriously,I think we did fine and the movie was quite intriguing and interesting.

Yeah, so that was my ordinarily evil monday. toodles! Midterms this week! *shudders* wish me luck!

Supreme Sundays

2007-02-18T20:19:00.000+08:00

I dunno why I came up with that title. Anyway. hahaha.

Today, my cousin frean' woke me up. I had the best dream, and she woke me up. psh. Anyway, she woke me up to eat over at our grand parent's place where we usually eat at Sundays. So I went there, chatted with my grandmother then when my sister arrived, we ate. While we were eating, I suddenly received a message from Ekah. She asked me if I could go to G4. Okay, that was so random.

So, as soon as I got home, I asked my dad and mom. And they said yes. So, I went there at like, 1:30 PM. Dan was already there. Bangers were also there because they celebrated ChangMin's birthday(?) I'm not so sure. Anyway, when Ekah arrived, we went to Starbucks.

At starbucks, we just chilled. Watched the ultimate Super Junior perf in Japan. We call it SuJu Heaven. hahaha. Anyway, we just watched a couple of perfs and talked talked talked.

That was basically my sunday. Nothing much, just an ordinary sunday with super special friends. So, it's called the supreme sunday. hahaha XD

Unlucky saturday

2007-02-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

today was the most unlucky day ever.

First, I woke up at 5 AM for our Community Service. Ugh. I'm not so enthusiastic in teaching little snotty kids. ahahah Sorry for the term. So, during the wait in the jeep, I saw alot of friends and people. Camille even gave me a piece of muffin. (Which tasted aweful! yuck!)

Anyway, so I arrived there, feeling fine. Until I started teaching. I suddenly had this feeling in my stomach. It hurted alot! and I was feeling so dizzy. So I went back to the headquarters thing there. And I didn't teach much because I really felt so bad. T_T

So after community service, I was dropped off in SM Fairview and I met up with May, my twin sis. Hahaha, we met up at like, 1:30. I dunno. We bought ramyun, chocopie, pepero and onion rings. And we made our way to Dan's place. I was feeling kinda fine during those moments.

When we reached Dan's place, gosh my tummy really really hurted alot. So, we watched a couple of vids. I even fell asleep because of my stomach. So, at 5:30 I already went home because it really hurts alot.

When I got home, I just went online and blah. I finished my fic! Summer Games and Winter Skates! I'm so proud of myself! wooh!~

enough blabbing, I'm sleeping. nyt!

tarot readings

2007-02-16T19:22:00.000+08:00

Okay, so, wipe out that last blog entry. that was one of my random drama queen moments this morning.

Anyway, today was such a bummer. I didn't do anything at school. there were no classes. I just stayed at the booth and chilled with Joanna.

The moment I arrived at school, I saw JJ. And he talked to me. I know, I'm happy because of this little thing. Well, he rarely talks to me. Anyway, he asked if I had a Henna tatoo already and I said no. And he told me I should get one. So, as soon as I arrived at our booth, me and Joanna got one. ahahaha Mine's a butterfly by my hand and she got 2 chinese characters on her arm.

So, there we just sat and talked non stop about Larc~en~ciel and more fangirling. After that, I decided to have my tarot reading session. It was so creepy because everything he said was so true. omg.

5 PM came and I met up with Mommy Che. So we just stayed at central plaza and chatted until we were going home.

I wanted to watch the fireworks show, but my cousin didn't go with me today. T.T

it's hard to walk away

2007-02-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

Mood: Confused
listening to: Walk Away - Paul DeAnda

You know...
This is really a secret but
I still miss you
I still remember your phone number
Your habits...
Your ways
The way you talk too
I remember everything so clearly
What am I going to do with myself?

This is crazy. I'm crazy for feeling this way. Can't this feeling just stop? Why do I find it hard to remove him from my thought? Why does he suddenly fill my mind even if I don't want to. Before, everything used to be so fine. But now, everything fell apart.

I know, I channel everything to my friends, studies, shopping, make up, super junior, but... it isn't enough. is it really love?

As the song says, it gets so hard to walk away. Sigh, when can I really say I'm okay? When can I say that I'm over you? When can I say that I'm finally loving someone else. That's why I find it hard to say yes to him. I feel like he's just going to be a rebound. Or can I love him too? I can love him if I try right? sigh.

S.A.D. - Single Awareness Day

2007-02-15T19:08:00.000+08:00

Mood: Tired
Listening to: My Boo - Usher and Alicia Keys

Yesterday was, Single Awareness Day. Yesh. Well, the morning part was EXCELLENT. Of course I had class. After the first class, I was manning the booth for our organization since I'm such a good member. *plus I might be getting a position! *winks*

I just waited there for a while because Ekah and I had a date. Yeah. Hahahaha. Oh happy day! I was amped to go to Glorietta already and see Ekah because, just as I have redundantly blogged before... I FREAKIN' MISS THAT GIRL.

Okay, so the 1 PM date became 3:30 PM ahahaha. real nice. But it was pure joy. We just talked endlessly. So, we bought frapucchinos and just chatted. We also went window shopping. I am so good in spotting Super Junior related clothing. I was eyeing that KyuHyun inspired MKMF shirt for a long time already and I am saving up for it. Next target would be the polka-dotted long sleeves that is HeeChullie inspired. I dunno it suddenly become a fetish to buy Super Junior clothing. I am also going to buy that striped hoodie in SM.

Yes, I am the fashionista fangirl.

So, after a while, Dan came! ahaha. So, we remained in the food court and chatted some more. I actually let Dan read the Lemon for MeiChul. (Mei=MeiJia=Ekah and Chul=HeeChul) Yeah, more of Donna's fangirl ramblings.

So, after a while, we went to my favorite shop. People are People. I showed them the clothes that are super junior inspired. Yesh. Fangirling is good. Then we roamed around some more then we ended up at the activity center. There was a concert and the person suddenly sang Tell Me Where It Hurts. I ended up crying.

It reminded me of him so much. Because I told him all my pains and he would always tell me to stop crying. And I did. I stopped when he told me too. I loved it when he was there with me. But everything stopped. I don't know what and why it happened. It just did.

I'm just going to stop or I'm going to end up crying again.

first two LEAP classes

2007-02-13T20:29:00.000+08:00

Today, I had my first ever LEAP class in DLSU. I was excited for this day because it was an alternative class where we can get to pick a class of our interest. I was with Che because... I dunno. hahaha. We both attended an Adobe Photoshop CS2 crash course. I do know how to use PS but I still need to learn some techniques.

I expected to learn alot from the course but, it was really easy and I don't get to use those techniques much because I'm not really the animation person thing. Anyway, I got to go online!~ like I don't always go online. hahaha. After the crash course, Cherilyn and I went to EGI to eat. We ate at DonDon's and chatted. After that, we went off to the main building. She went to SPS and I went to the Library to borrow the cable thing for the projector.

In the afternoon, I was the assistant project head for the Archaeology 101 crash course. It was really interesting since I am a history major. I wanna experience being able to discover something made by prehistoric people. They even showed how they duplicate the ancient stuff. it was awesome! I got the indian man on top of the manunggul jar. Okay, for those who doesn't know what that is, it's an ancient burial jar. The indian men at the top are the guards who bring those people in the jar to next life.

Yesh, so I'm gonna stop my blabbing about the LEAP classes. But I am looking forward to next year's.

Tomorrow is Single Awareness Day! wooooh! hahaha. I have a date with HeeChul, I mean with Ekah! hahaha

The best angels

2007-02-11T14:07:00.000+08:00

I wanna share to everyone the best angels that God sent down for me.

Faye Nadine Garcia

One of the best angels on earth. Faye is one of the people that knows me so well. As in so well. To the point that somehow, she knows what I'm thinking. Scary right? haha But it's fun and nice. Fun in the sense that, I don't need to tell her how I feel because she already knows. Nice because she understands me well. Faye is one of those people that I don't need to have anything to talk about. We talk about almost everything our minds could. We need not to have find stuff to talk to because we can talk endlessly on the phone. She's been my friend for almost 3 years now. We'll celebrate our third year aniversary on March 31. I rarely get to see her, but still our friendship never cease to exist. I love you Fayee~!

Adik Clan [L-R: Ekah, May, Dan and Gerty]

Can I call these 4 girls as angels? ahaha just joking. Yeah they are my angels. These four girls keep me sane. Just when I want to give up, they're there to boost me up.

Ekah is one sweet girl. When I'm down, she does everything she coudl just to cheer me up. She never wants me to be sad. She always wants me to be happy. Like me to her. She's one the best people to talk to especially when I'm troubled. She often comes to my house and we just hang and watch vids all afternoon. She's also one of the few people that knows me so well.

May, my twin sister. hahaha. Twin sister because our birthdays are really near with each other. Mine's 25 she's 21st. We're also of the same age. I've known her for almost 2 years? or a year? I'm not exactly sure. But one thing is for sure, we started out during the K-One days. hahaha. But then we moved from K-one to Super Junior. It's really fun being with this addicted girl.

Dan, is the one that I can always talk to. One, she's always online and two she always replies to my txts even if she's smart and I'm globe. She's also one of those people that can brighten up my dark days. especially these past few weeks. We often see each other because I get to go to their house and also, she drops by school at times.

Gerty.ahaha. how do I even begin to explain this girl? She's very fun to be with. She's also the epitome of the saying, "looks can kill." Not that she's planning to kill anyone. She's just really deceiving. You'll think she's really innocent and quiet. well, in fact.... she's not. Not even close. hahaha. But she's really fun to talk to. We often tease each other when we get to talk.

Cherilyn Michelle Ong

How do I even begin with this girl? She's not exactly the angel that would always go along with you. ahhaha. I love the company of this girl. She can make me laugh, she would often tease me and she's often burst my bubble. She's the type of girl that always pulls me back to the ground. She draws lines to my limitations. She's the girl that I can talk about all my problems to. And she never ever complains. She's always there to listen to me and sometimes, she gets to cheer me up. Even if we often bicker with each other, at least I know her real personality. She's been my friend for over a year already. I never thought that I could meet her, but now, we're schoolmates. hahaha.

those are a few of my best angels. I love and cherish them always. Though it might not be the sweetest and best way, I still make my presence felt to them.

pic credits to: SjPhils and Friendster

Keep holding on

2007-02-11T13:25:00.000+08:00

Mood: Sleepy
Listening to: Can you feel the love tonight - Elton John

Okay, I know its weird that I'm listening to Elton John, but what can I do? It's the song from Y!Launch. hahaha. Okay so I'm just going to change the station then.

I dunno why I'm blogging I just felt like it. Okay so now, the song playing is irreplaceable. Sigh.

Today, I was supposed to go to Glorietta 4 with Ekah, Dan and May. I suddenly remembered it's my mom's birthday. Okay stupid of me, I know. Anyway, I hope they decided to go over here. I sooo miss them already.

I really feel kinda bad these past two days. I dunno why, but it's not because of them. It crazy, I'm crying. Pointless. Stop crying. Crying won't do anything.

I know, I have the greatest friends the God has given. and I am thankful to him. He gave me the best set of friends that anyone can ask for. And for them, I will hold on. I know that I can make it through. I know that they'll always be there to make me strong. They're the people that truly knows and appreciates me. I know that they'll be by my side always. I just won't listen to those people anymore. They will no longer exist in my life.

Just like mommy Che said, "Act as if they're dead." and I would.

This is the last time to cry. If I would cry again, I dunno what would happen anymore.

Over it?

2007-02-08T21:08:00.000+08:00

Mood: Melancholic
Listening to: Katharine McPhee - Over it

Sigh, the song kinda fits to my mood right now. Okay this rarely happens especially now in college, I cried again. I cried over at Cello's. It wasn't really intentional.

Wait, so let me talk about a different thing first. This afternoon, I went to a Talk at Yuchengco. It was about vanity and make up. It was so cool. The speakers were from Matro magazine and L'Oreal Philippines.

The first speaker was a girl. I forgot her name, but she taught us about or skin types. I'm guessing mine is oily - mixed skin. I think I'm going to buy new make up from now on. and I think it's going to be mostly L'Oreal. ahaha.

So, the guy, the representative from L'Oreal. He showed us how to put make up on which was absolutely interesting. I now know how to use a concealer and an eyelash curler! well, I actually know how to use it, but I'm amazed by what I learned. ahahah. I mean how to do it professionally.

Anyway, about the thing in Cello's. god forget it. I'm well to pissed.

thinking.. and photoshopping..

2007-02-06T19:35:00.000+08:00

yeah, here I am again.

Today, as usual, I had one class. Psychology. Well, I had fun, as always. we did some activities and blah blah blah.

Anyway, I'm not here to blabb about that. I'm here to blabb about something that I was thinking of.

I was photoshopping earlier because I recently downloaded some brushes and I was browsing throught and I saw these words. "If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, then they were always yours. If they don't, they were never yours."

I know what your thinking. I'm going emo again and stuff. well, sorta. When I read these words, they made me realize a few things.

1. Nothing lasts forever. well, maybe some but not all. I would always wish and say that I'd be forever with my friends, which would really be impossible. But, I wanna spend my time with them as long as I'm here.

2. Maybe they never were my friends. Okay. This, I felt kinda bad. Today, when I went to school, I was pondering about what would have been, what could have been, if I didn't meet him and Cherilyn. Well, I couldn't think of any possibilities. I couldn't think of any more answers. Because it was impossible. It already happened. And I couldn't change anything anymore. It already happened. It's true what they say... In the end, it's where you'll regret.

3. True friends are never gone. I already proved this. with Faye. We don't have much in common anymore, and yet, we're still the best of friends. She could relate to me and I the same to her. Even if I didn't talk to her for a long time, she'll still welcome me with open arms.

I really miss my friends. As in I super miss them. Especially Ekah, May, Edz, Gerty, Dan and Faye. I wish that I could always hang out and see them.

Aish, this is too much drama in one day. I'll go now. Toodles!

Movies and Overnights...

2007-02-05T13:22:00.000+08:00

Last saturday was the best! hahaha. Well, not the morning part really. The morning part was kinda pissing off for me. So I'll skip that one off.

When I arrived at DLSU, I immediately went to U-Mall to meet up with Cherilyn. We have a movie date because it was KyuHyun's birthday.So, we first went to school just to freshen up then we went to Mall of Asia. We ate, we chatted and we went off to watch a movie. We watch Night at the Museum which was totally hilarious. We even named the monkey HyukJae... hahaha. Then, sadly, I had to leave because we were in a hurry to go to Laguna. So I left her at the internet shop and I went home.

My cousins and my dad were the only ones there. So, we went to Laguna. It was really traffics but we managed to get there. So, we got settled then ate dinner then went over to my cousin's birthday. So, late night, we went back there and I joined my cousin and her friends. Well, some were my friends too. So we started drinking and playing games. It was sorta fun.. I got kinda drunk but it was okay. ahaha. I was with Joey most of the time. Sp, there were alot of Kissing, smooching and blah but it was okay. We left at like, 3 AM and I slept off at 4 AM.

The morning after, I woke up, ate breakfast, went swimming for a while again, then just sat down and rested. We went back my cousin's villa after a while and I just hanged with the girls. Well, we played games again. ahahah.

The two days were so much fun.. but they were tiring. nevertheless. very fulfulling.
I'll post pics later. toodles!

Katipunan moments..

2007-02-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday, I had swimming class and went to katipunan. I was just bored so I decided to drop by. I was with Aimee and Di the whole afternoon. We had so much fun. Aimee and I went to Cello's and bought doughnuts. Yeah we are pigs. hahaha. After that, we went to starbucks, and bought coffee. We were talking and giggling there. Well, we had fun. Di followed because she fell asleep at the apartment. Then we decided to walk in Ateneo. It was freakin' cold but it was nice. hahaha. I went home at about, 8 PM! ahaha.

So, today, I had classes. I was bored the whole day. Its freakin' weird. Anyway, it was okay. Just felt the day was sooo boring. aish. it's crazy.

Well, I miss ekah badly. I actually miss everyone. May, Dan, Edline, Alliza, Ekah, Ate Rica... I miss the JC-ers badly. I'm dead tired from all the school work I'm glad the rate is going down.

It's february already. time sure flies fast. Tomorrow, it's Kyuhyun and my cousin's birthday. I'm sorta excited because we'll go swimming. And me and Mommy Che will watch a movie. weeee~! first movie and it's kyuhyun's birthday!! hahaha

I'm kinda looking forward tomorrow. It would be so much fun. :)

Depressing Emo Moments

2007-01-30T19:53:00.000+08:00

Okay, so today I only had one class. Psychology. I actually look forward to this one class because I have so much fun.

I dunno, I like my friends in this class. We're so talkative and stuff. ahaha. Well, today we had different groupings and it was kinda sad because I wasn't with Camille and Miks anymore. but it was okay. So, we had group work and blah.

After class, I was with Grace, Camille and Kenx. Anyway, we were in front of the STRC, shouting and going crazy. then we ate at cerealicious! oh yeah. I ate charlie and the chocnut factory. don't ask. ahaha~! it was sweet, chocolatey and chocnut-ey. wahahaha sorry I'm abit crazy. It was okay. We continued our craziness there.

Well, I read her blog yesterday and I just wanna say. dream on byotch. ahahaha.

Anyway, last sunday, I was shocked to hear that ekah had an accident. Gosh i cried so hard I didn't know what to do. She's fine now and we'll try to visit her tomorrow if it's possible.

I feel so stressed and tired. I don't want to be burdened by troubles anymore. I want to stop worrying. I want to stop. I'm not gonna wait for the sun to set on the east. It's impossible.

Eragon Escapades

2007-01-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

Today, I decided to skip classes.

I went out with friends to watch Eragon. It was really interesting. And we kept on teasing the lead guy. ahaha. After that we went to Toy Kingdom and spazzed over the cute stuffed toys.

Anyway, today wasn't so interesting. I just had PERSEF1 which was kinda fun. We had "sharing time" again. We didn't have INTGLOS so I was bored to death.

So, I'll just wrap this up because nothing much happened. Toodles!

pizzas and swimming

2007-01-25T19:07:00.000+08:00

okay so I'm random about the title. Can't think of anything else.

So, wednesday at U-Break, I was with Cherilyn, Mae, Mamot, Jo and Sean. Well, basically, Cherilyn with her blockmates. ahaha. Though, it was fine since I knew them already. So, we were at Pizza Hut. Che, Mamot, Mae and I came from Andrew. I'm guessing that Sean and Jo came from Red Ribbon since they bought a cake. It was really fun. It took awhile for us to order ahaha! Cherilyn was kinda pissed off because the service was totally bad. Anyway, I gave her the pink angel teuk and a bracelet and earrings set. I just hope she liked it. But I'm sure she liked angel teuk. ahahaha. After that, went to usual classes.

Today, I had swimming for first class. Swimming was nice. It soothed my mind. It relaxed me alot. Even if the water was freezing cold. ahaha. I was partned with Alexa. We started to do freestyle. And it was fine. Just like having basic training again.

Today, I saw him again. At first I got pissed off. But I told myself, I had other things to be pissed off about. Actually, I don't wanna get pissed off. It's bad for me. lolz but I really am trying to be a little more.. I dunno. I want to be cheerful always. *burns free loaders* *grins*

Today, I was crying. Camille was there to soothe me and I am grateful. We aren't really that close but it seemed so easy to talk to her. She's just like my friends, Adik Clan. May,Ekah, Edz, Dan, Gerty... I love these guys. JC-ers are really great. I love these people!

am I stronger?

2007-01-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

Today, I was just walking around the house when, suddenly, our neighbor started playing Britney Spears songs. Okay, don't even think about it. I wasn't singing along or anything, I was just listening to it. And I started questioning myself with her song Stronger.

Can I really say that, after all that has happened, am I stronger now? Can I say that, I'm not hurt anymore?

Of course not. I haven't forgotten yet. I haven't forgiven them yet. I don't even think that I can still forgive them.

Especially my so-called "bestfriend". She already knows, I'm done with forgiving her. She's already done alot of damage with our friendship. I'm done with her lies and her backstabbing. You know what, here's a friendly advice... set your priorities straight. If you say that you're my friend, then be one. Don't backstab me because it's not what a bestfriend does.

The other one, I don't know if I could still forgive her. She also did alot of backstabbing about me. I wouldn't say that I never did that with her, because I'd be a hypocrite. At least, I tried thinking about her. About how she felt. But she didn't think about how I felt. She was too greedy. She wants to know why I wanted to get close to that guy, well here's my answer. Because he was a good friend to me. He wanted to be my friend. And what did she do? She backstabbed about him and Che. I was afraid of entering college. In De La Salle, but when I met these two people, I was suddenly fine with entering the school. Because I know, I have my friends with me. I had these two friends with me. She didn'e even think about that. I thought she understood me, I guess I was wrong.

Well, I'll be open minded about it when they apologize. Because I know for myself that I wont. I never did anything wrong. Why would I admit to their mistakes? Even if they apologize, nothing would be the same anymore. everything will change. everything must change.

After typing this blog entry, I never shed a tear, I never felt any sympathy. Am I stronger? or just numb?

Cherilyn's birthday and events

2007-01-22T19:27:00.000+08:00

first of all, let me say... happy birthday mommy che!!! you're officially old.. I mean, legal. hahaha! wow, time flies by so fast, I still remember making a crappy graphic for her birthday.

So, today, I went to school to finalize my dropping. let me say, manual dropping sucks. Big time. Aish, I didn't even get a refund, oh well, at least I dropped the subject already. I dunno why, but I'm suddenly not in the mood to take histciv. After that, I went to starbucks and chilled. Well, I started the joint fic that me and Mommy will be making. So after that, I had my classes then after classes I went to McDo. When I was about to go home, I saw him. God, he looked.... disturbed? ahahaha. I dunno. I feel like an attention whore now. I dunno, I still feel bad and is still disappointed with him.

Anyway, I don't wanna think about him anymore. I read something recently. Her thing about me. That she misses me and crap. I mean, would I dare believe it? NO. I dont want to anymore. I've had enough lies.

On wednesday I'm going to wear the red and gold dress~~!!!! ahahaha It's mommy's birthday celebration. ahahaha

Anyway, I'll go and watch CSI now.